Sunday, October 30, 2005

What we did when Mr. Siva was away...


We took this in LT4 (where we always have our Computing Principles tutorial classes with Mr. Siva). He was in Vietnam! *Sighs* I miss Mr. Siva. Hahaha...

Top: Eddie (Fly Emirates, Toshiba, Sharp, Real Madrid, England...don't know which one he likes also), Priya (Fei Mao), and Yas (sweet one).

Bottom: Adrian (Liverpool fan), me (the majorly lost one), and Jo Weng (the Chicken Little of our class...I want to boycott him! Haha! Jo, you know why, don't you?).

Those two beside me are my bodyguards. See-lah..I'm the queen sitting on the chair. And the queen can look weird if she wants to because SHE'S THE QUEEN! Where's the king? No king yet, I'm asking you guys to find me one. Wait...I'm ordering you to find me one since I'm the queen! I am a desperate queen! Haha...

1. The Queen- Me

2. Bodyguards- Adrian and Jo Weng

3. Court Jesters- Priya and Eddie

4. The *Dayang*- Yasmiza

Total LAME-O J-MO case right? Hehe! CR-ed this pic from Eddie. And yes, we're a bunch of photogenic people. Sue us already.

Updates on my latest shenanigans

Hehe...as the title (which is, by the way, at the end of the post) would suggest, I have much to update. Anyway, here goes.

Friday: I did my presentation! *Phew*...at least I won't have to worry much since I chose not to do it at the last minute. It's actually the first time I spoke with confidence and hardly any fear bottled in me. I didn't freeze there (like I always did in school), I just started on a good note. Even though I did refer to my cue cards, but at least I knew what to say next right after seeing the necessary information. But I relly don't know how much I scored for it. Eddie's and Sylvien's presentation were good. Hope I get good grades for it. The new furniture's here! It's the blue one. Haha..love it! Did a lot of cleaning up after that.

Saturday: Had the PARENTS-LECTURER MEETING. Overall, the lecturers said I'm NOT noisy, talkative, and the likes. I hardly cause trouble, a very good student, very attentive, and I have a group of good friends (the more *concentious* type of people, according to Mr. Chen). I'm sure my parents are shocked to hear that from my lecturers. They always think I'm noisy and not attentive, since I'm like that at home. Haha...I'm a completely different person at home and in class. Think of it as a *Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde* situation. I told them that, but they refuse to believe me. Not my fault. Hehe...not too happy with my marks, but I'm aiming for my finals. Wish me luck. Then went to Bangsar Shopping Complex, Bangsar Village, and PJ. Then came home and slept. Got my first Raya card (pathetic, I know) from Sree. Felt happy. And went to sleep, then woke up and then continued with the housework! And found out that Chelsea won 4-2 over Blackburn Rovers. A goal from Didier Drogba, 2 goals from Frank Lampard, and a goal from Joe Cole won us the match! Yay!

Just haven't been in the mood for Raya. Feel depressed. Haha...and yeah, have you guys tried PEPSI TARIK? It's a bit too sweet for my tongue, but once you get the gas out, it should taste okay. I'd like to be the next CEO of Permanis. Then I can get monthly supplies of Pepsi! Haha...anyway, I know the CEO of Permanis. He's my dad's friend's son. I know it'll be way off psychology, but it's one of my insatiable dreams. To work in Permanis. Haha...

Anyway, have to go now. Will update later. See you around.

*Bluesy* out!

Friday, October 28, 2005

Something Sree sent me...

NATURAL HIGHS
1. Being in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No queues at the supermarket.
5. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
6. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.
7. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
8. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
9. Chocolate milkshake ... (or vanilla ... or strawberry!)
10. A bubble bath.
11. Giggling.
12. A good conversation.
13. Finding a $20 note in your coat from last winter.
14. Running through sprinklers.
15. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
16. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
17. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
18. Waking up and realising you still have a few hours left to sleep.
19. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
20. Having someone play with your hair.
21. Sweet dreams.
22. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
23. Holding hands with someone you care about.
24. Running into an old friend and realising that some things (good or bad) never change.
25. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.
26. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
27. Knowing that somebody misses you.
28. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
29. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

Thanks to Sree, for this. I'd like to add a few things on what I think about it.

1. Being in love? Hmm...does being in love with Frank Lampard count? Hahaha...I'm pretty happy when I'm in love with things I take really seriously (Frank Lampard included).

2. I love laughing at insipid things. Pretty childish, I know, but laughter IS the best medicine anyhow. Me and Mar can look at a situation at laugh about it the whole day. And trust me, I have suffered from facial spasms/cramps due to hours of laughing. I try not to laugh too often since according to Jiet, he dislocated his jaw since he laughed so much. Ouch. That has got to hurt!

3. I love hot showers, well, I always bathe with hot water anyway. People don't understand how I can possibly bathe with hot water on an extremely hot day. I'm unique, I told you that already!

4. This is pretty unimaginable. I have never been to a supermarket, only to see there's no queue. Take my *beloved* OTK for example. Always crowded with people. *Sighs*...bad enough it reeks.

5. No road in KL is pretty to drive on. Potholes. Trust me, I drove in Jalan TAR (the place where people love to get stuff at an ultimately low price) and it was so crazy. Kl drivers are really rude and inconsiderate. Or maybe it's my driving skills...

6. This one definitely gets me high all the time! I'm actually listening to Franz Ferdinand's *Do You Want To?* right now! Love it...this one makes me high!

7. It's actually raining now. I can smell the rain as I type. I love the sound and the smell of rain. I really want to dance in the rain one of these days. I can't do it now, since the festive season is looming nearer, and I want to celebrate it in good health. I want a lot of green/blue packets this time around. I will not settle for anything less.

8. Never had the experience with this. So I will not say anything.

9. Chocolate milkshake! Delicious...enough said!

10. Bubble baths are relaxing. You should do it at least once a month. Really gets you high.

11. Giggling...good thing. No matter how small the issue is, always try and find a way to giggle it over.

12. Mar and I can always have a good conversation no matter how stupid the issue may be. It really opens your mind to see some situation from a different perspective.


13. Hmm...never really experienced this but, does finding a RM50 note in your wallet after thinking that you've spent every single penny of it? Yes, it does.

14. Haven't tried this before, but Mar says it can really get you high, especially at night.

15. I love this one! It really gets me high and going after one miserable day.

16. James Blunt said I'm beautiful! Haha...that's very lame. If someone said I'm beautiful, I'd probably poke their eyes with a fork. Well, unless, of course, if Frank Lampard said it to me. Then it's a whole different story.

17. Umm...hehe...I think it's weird when people say something nice about you. I don't know, I feel awkward if people tell nice things about me. Paranoid = ME.

18. This one I really hate. I want to SLEEP. I do not like waking up halfway only to find I have a few hours till I should really get up. Trust me, I will not go back to sleep. I'm a weirdo, sue me.

19. This is true. Can't really tell you how it feels to actually make new friends since I'm pretty shy, and spending time with your old mates since I'm shy again. Don't ask why.

20. I seriously dislike people playing with my hair. So I have to scratch this off the list.

21. Sweet dreams are made of this. Enough said.

22. This actually happened to me when I was leaving Los Angeles for KL. This South American guy kept looking at me everytime I looked around. And he was making eye contact with me! *Gasps*...why didn't I ask him for his number then? So stupid of me!

23. I love holding my mother's hands. But she doesn't. So I like holding my dad's hands. So does he. But he doesn't like holding my hands when it gets really cold. *Aiyo, girl. There's something wrong with you! Your hands are like ice! One of these days must take you to see Dr. Rahim!*. Dad, I'm fine.

24. This is true, but unexplainable.

25. Err...can I relate this about myself? Hehe...I know people enjoy seeing me excited when I get something I really want for a very long time! Especially if it's something blue. That would put me on cloud nine.

26. Hmm...not entirely true. Sometimes I tell myself it's going to be a good morning, but instead it's the exact opposite.

27. Does anyone miss me? I don't know so I can't tell you how I feel bout this fact.

28. My parents! I love hugging them. My mom doesn't though. She feels ticklish if I hug her.

29. I love this fact. I love to believe in the fact that I'm always right!

*Bluesy* out!

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Bizarre situation...

I'd like to say this to any EPL fans reading this post:

*I don't care if Chelsea crashed out of the Carling Cup thanks to the penalties and Robert Huth despite them being the holders, at least we have three other trophies that we have set our eyes on. We are just letting you 'minnows' salvage at least a trophy, since we're going to take the remaining three!*

*Sighs* bad day. Hope we can recover so that we can beat Blackburn on Saturday! Pretty sad we actually are not in the next round. For God's sake, we're the holders of the Carling Cup! Only consolation is that last season's finalist, Liverpool are out too. To my brother, please don not slap me for this.

At least this is something Mar and I can sit and laugh about. I know some of you might be thinking *What the hell?*, but we are a realistic bunch. If we don't win this, we can try winning what's left for us to win! Always look on the bright side of life. Our on-off motto.

On to other news. My parents are going for the PARENTS-LECTURER MEETING (concerned parents, they are). Hope they say nice things bout me then. I don't know Madam Goh keeps emphasising on the fact that they serve food and drinks on that day. It's really odd since:

1. We aren't going there for the food, we are going there to get screwed (hey, it rhymes!). Seriously, we're going there to find out our progress in class.
2. We are FASTING. It's a whole different situation if we are NOT fasting.

We have a situation with the HMC ball. Now a lot of people are backing out, and now there are 11 people out of the 20 we booked. So we plan to get a table, and find someone who's not too keen on going. Unfortunately, everyone's keen on going. So we might have to cancel the whole thing. Bummer.

And I scored 20 out 40 for my Maths exam. Not too good, but I expected it. In fact, Mr. Chen did mention that the August intake's mathematical skills are bad compared to the January, March and May intake students. The highest mark in my class is 37 (Jo Weng). And he says he's depressed. Chicken Little...

Anyway, have to go now, have to prepare my Maths presentation on John Nash. *Bluesy* out!

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Gonna die!

If at all I die, I want FRANK LAMPARD and LEE RYAN at my funeral. It's not like I can see them anyway. Had my MS Excel assessment today. Mr. Siva left for Vietnam the whole week *frowns*, so Ms Winnie supervised our class for the assessment. Damn was she darn emo! Give me Mr. Siva anyday and I'll be just fine. She was just yelling at us as though we weren't human beings. Wonder how her lab students can deal with her emo-ness. Hello, only five out of your lab students (she has like around 25 students) came for last week's lab class, unlike our class. Full attendance. Shows how much we like him I guess. Overall the assessment was okay, but I think I made some very dumb errors. It's bad enough I started late, no thanks to the first computer (I tried it, and it couldn't read my floppy disk, saying it's not formatted), and then had to go to the next lab, had to start the computer again and had to change the damn password, and then thank God it could read my floppy disk! Hope for the best anyway. I think the MS Word assessment was better than this. Since this isn't exactly my forte. *Sighs*...after class, went to see the three scholarship recipients from our class. Cheetah went back early, so only managed to see Jo Weng and Roya. Jo Weng wore green! Haha...the CHICKEN LITTLE of our class.

Tomorrow we only have Mdm Goh's class...just contemplating what to do after that. Corpse Bride's out on Thursday. We'll see about it later.

*Bluesy* out!

Monday, October 24, 2005

What on Earth?

I expected Chelsea to win against Everton, considering the latter's performance is not like last season's. But in the end, they drew 1-1. And there I was thinking, how could it be possible that other teams below Chelsea BEAT Everton, but Chelsea somewhat couldn't do the same? JM was right...he was afraid of Everton. I still don't understand why Drogba's goal was disallowed in the first place? At least Frankie did some justice by scoring the equaliser, bringing his goal tally to 8. The same as RVN! *Sighs*...of all the times Everton had to get defensive, it had to be against CHELSEA. As a result, we couldn't break Tottenham's record of having 11 successive wins at the start of the season, but hey, look on the brightside. We have gone 39 games unbeaten, 10 short of Arsenal's record. Hope we can break that record.

Arsenal's second penalty was a weird story. Liverpool lost yet again...this time to Fulham. MU were to a 1-1 draw with Tottenham. Jenas scored! Yay! Wigan are doing well! In fact a lot better than I actually imagined! They now lie in fourth, just ahead of MU, who have a game at hand! Our next match is against Charlton. Bless us!

Here's what JM had to say bout the whole thing:

Jose Mourinho was pleased with the performance of his team - especially their second half reaction to being behind - but was livid about the Didier Drogba 'goal' in that period that would have returned all three points.

"We scored two goals," he insisted. "Normally when you score two goals and concede one you win the game."

On 62 minutes Drogba had neatly beaten Nigel Martyn from man-of-the-match Frank Lampard's clever pass into the box. Replays showed that Eidur Gudjohnsen was in an offside position to his side when the ball left Lampard's boot, but the Ivorian was not.

"It was a clear goal," Mourinho continued. "Even if the linesman has doubts, he has to give advantage to the attacking team. They also have instructions to wait until the last moment to put the flag up. This time, like a rocket [the linesman raised his arm].

"On television even less doubt. It was a big mistake."

David Moyes understandably felt that Gudjohnsen was interfering with play, but indicated that his claims for a late hand-ball by John Terry from Marcus Bent's flick were softening, and that it was doubtful.

He was delighted with his side's display but full of praise for Chelsea and Frank Lampard's "stunning" performance. "Chelsea are the best team in Europe. They have fantastic players and I have to give a lot of credit to our players for making a game of it.

"You can't plug all the gaps. You have to decided which leaks are the best ones to have."

There was no panic from Mourinho at the first mislaid points of the Premiership season for the Blues. "I was ready for a draw or to lose a game," he shrugged. "It's part of football. It's normal. We should have dropped points first week, at Wigan."

He then reminded the media of the refereeing error during Chelsea's first drawn game of last season at Aston Villa, when Didier Drogba was erroneously booked for diving when the striker should have earned a penalty. The referee then, Rob Styles, he noted, subsequently apologised.

The manager even had time for a little sport at Arsenal's expense following Robert Pires's capsized showboat yesterday - a miscued pass to Thierry Henry from the penalty spot.

"You know why they took the [second] penalty like that yesterday?" Jose smiled. "They have so many penalties in a season they had to do something different."

True. *Sighs*...we won anyway.

And yeah, I still think I'm getting crazier. Today people asked me

*Why is it that women like football?* -Jonathan-
*Must be because of the looks of the players* -Ben-
*That's not true* -Me-
*Come on-lah. Even CLEO Magazine says that women only watch football to look at the guys there!* -Jonathan-
*No-lah. I admit like Beckham, but when he left for Real Madrid, I still continued supporting MU! -Sylvien-
*Hello, I'm not one of those women interviewed by CLEO Magazine ok? I watch football because it's in my genes! I remember waking up at 5 in the morning only to find a bunch of unknown old men watching football on TV, and I asked my mum what were they doing, and she told they were watching the final of the 1994 WORLD CUP* -Me-.

Okay, they were not *a bunch of unknown old men*. They were my dad's friends. I didn't really know them then. I was 7...and I got hooked from then on. I actually watched Malaysian football, and supported Selangor at one point of time. Then I supported every team...I was more of a neutral case. Actually, my interest leaned more towards MU. Then one fine day, Mar asked me:
*Ah Yan arr, you better pick the team you going to support. You better put your foot down, otherwise I'll kick you with my foot!*. And then I supported Chelsea. And eventually I supported Frank Lampard. I told you I support the team, see the player's talent, then support him. If he's good looking, well, I suppose that is an added incentive. So stop questioning my faith in football ok? Argh...do I have to explain it to you people over and over again?

I have gone through this like a million times already, so much so I am sick of explaining it already. I'm not that type of lady, by the way. I'm pretty much different than most girls. Hell yeah I am! I hate Barbie dolls, and I squirm whenever my niece asks me to play her dolls (Bratz, Barbie and the likes). I preferred to play dinosaurs, toy guns, foosball (yes, we had one when we were innocent souls), and video games. I still love video games now! I grew up with X-Men and I love them till now. Call me boyish or whatsoever, I will not change myself to like all these despicable *saccharine-coated girlishness*. I'm me, you can't possibly change me. Try me. I will break you if you do.

I have a new fan and a new light installed in my so-called new room, which is sadly painted pink, to mark that a *girl* sleeps here! Tension! Anyway, have to go now.

*Bluesy* out!

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Songs currently playing in my head...

I have a few songs that have been in my mind for quite some time. Some of it may have logical reasons, some, however, may not. But anyhow, here goes...

1. You're Beautiful - James Blunt
God damn it!! This song is so beautiful...the lyrics are so innocent yet it has an incredibly deep meaning. First I thought, what the hell? The guy sounds weird. But after listening to it for so many times, I was convinced that this guy has got more to offer. The honest yet meaningful lyrics are simply wonderful. Mar actually told me that she cried when Charlie said this to her: *This would have probably been the song I'd sing to you before you became mine*. Emo queen...LOL!

2. Trippin' - Robbie Williams
The man is back! I love this bloke! The video for this song is so funny! I liked the baby! Haha...anyway, this song rocks! You know something? Franz's right. Kuno Becker looks like Robbie Williams. Just noticed it anyway. I will buy Robbie's album when I have the money, MAR! If not, please ask your uncle Roman Abramovich to sponsor me financially! Deutz of the year, I tell you!

3. Believe Me - Fort Minor
This song's the best! You have to listen to the lyrics...

*We was like one in the same
On the right track
But I was on the wrong train
It's like that
Now you gotta face the pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain
Like a maze
You can never escape
The rain
Every damn day's the same shade of grey!*

How cool is that? The lyrics are great, and the melody is superb! Take a listen to this track okay? This is Mike Shinoda's side project. Mike Shinoda of Linkin Park, in case you didn't know. Superb!

4. Do You Want To? - Franz Ferdinand
Me and Farah just love this tune! Seemingly, I just don't know why this track is still stuck in some corner of my brain, but it's there! I love this track! Mar told she actually heard the song at the club, and took some pics of herself pouting while listening to it! Hehe...Farah don't you just love this song? Makes me so LUCKY!

5. Eternity - Robbie Williams
This song is an old song from him. But this song is really lovely...makes me reminisce the good times with Azura...*And I hope you find your freedom, eventually, for ETERNITY...for ETERNITY*.

6. Shake it Off - Mariah Carey
Well, for obvious reasons, this song is my favourite at the moment. Goes out the bloke who unfortunately has no intentions of leaving me alone already. I HATE YOU! Go away! I try to be nice with you, you refuse to be nice to me in the end! And then you try to be nice with me? I can't be bothered with your pathetic antics! Argh...away with you! Emo...calm down Julez!

That's about it I guess. Will continue when I feel like it!

*Bluesy* out!

Queen of emo-ness..

Who's the queen of emo-ness? It's between me and Mar. I'm serious. Yesterday, the whole day seemed so wrong. I started the morning by arguing with my mum. She told me to wear my baju kurung for class. She told me not to go out for lunch since I'm wearing baju kurung and asked me to asked my friend to buy me food. I hate asking my friends to buy me food, because:

1. I hate troubling people. It's bad enough they're going out to eat for themselves, and they have to buy me food, making them all the more guilty (I mean, they have to come back early as they have politely agreed to buy me food, and they are worried that while they're busily munching down on food, I'll be waiting for them, and by the time they get back, I'll be as hungry as a wolf, while they'll be quite full!).

2. I am tired of eating McDonalds and Dunkin Donuts for the past four days. Honestly you can get bored eating there continuously. Despite the fact I get a 20% discount when I eat at Dunkin Donuts.

3. You honestly can't *tapau tosai or roti canai* back to college. You have to eat by hand, and almost nearby the toilet (that's where the vacant tables are located anyway).

I wanted to wear jeans yesterday, since the people at Ali Maju think I'm Indian or something, since they keep talking to me in Tamil when I'm talking to them in Malay. People won't suspect me being a Malay when I'm wearing jeans, since I look mixed anyway. Even when I went to Bandar Baru Sentul's Ramadhan Bazaar, the guy there said this to me:

*Tanggachi, ingge poringge? Ingge poringge?*

Which meant: *Girl, where are you going? Where are going?*. I was wearing a T-shirt and jeans then. But no. Mum asked me to wear baju kurung. She's so insensitive. I mean, I so do not look like a Malay (Mdm Goh is one who can testify this)...so it won't look that obvious if I'm not fasting. I hate eating alone anyway. People will stare at you when you eat. It's freaky!


I couldn't eat in Ali Maju anyway since I was in a baju kurung, so I went to a place in Taman Desa. Followed Yas, Roya, Cheetah, Priya, Ben, Sylvien, and Ching Hooi there. Do not get into a car if Cheetah is driving. Crazy...Priya told her to stop somewhere to wait for Ben who was missing, and said *Whatever you do, don't stop here*. And she just does the opposite. Ben followed us in too! Haha...came back at 12.30 p.m. and went to study. At 2 p.m., we were busy cracking jokes with each other. We were listening to Priya's version of Crazy Frog, Mr. Bean, Donald Duck, Mickey Mouse, Minnie, Bugs Bunny, Tweety, and so much more.

Study Skills exams was okay. Managed to do it. Glad...anyway take a look at these excerpts from Sylvien and Jonathan's blog about our Maths exams:

Sylvien's post:
Aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dunno wat happen to me today. I can't do maths. I'm totally blank. B-L-A-N-K!! Wat the hell! I can't do each of the question. I dun understand. I dun even noe wat's the 1st step to do. Don't know don't know don't know......I'M BLANK! Lecturers will be disappointed at our papers, BUT at the same time they are happy too. Coz they successfully create difficult questions n probably most of the students can't answer. OR MAYB onli me that can't do it. I noe i shudn't blame the person that set the questions. Ok ok! I'm controlling my anger. I'm just angry n disappointed at myself. I just dunno wat happen to me this morning. Y i can't do it?Izzit not enuf sleep or wat?
When i read the 1st question, i was like "What the hell izzit?" I can't think of anything. I dunno how to create a equation or even draw a graph. I'm sure I'm goin to fail in my maths. Then i go tru other questions n it still the same, D-U-N-N-O! Today i make a new fren. His name is Mr. Dunno. Everyone is writing on the paper n I look at my paper, is white n blank. Onli got my name n my group. Thank God! At least I still noe my name n group. At that moment, I reali feel like hand in a blank paper. Sigh..............Oh by the way, I make fren wif Mr. Failure too.

Jonathan's post:
Hey guys...All I can say...bad week...there has been nothing much done to console myself of this frigging week...I just feel like sleeping it all away sometimes...This is one of those weeks where you wonder whether God is sleeping or on vacation.First off,I literally tapped the panic button a few thousand times during math test which is equivalant to total failure.That was bad enough but I had to walk in the rain because the metro 12 ass bus decided to take a detour on the rainy day...Followed by a raging insomnia at night...I felt like shit this morning.Sighs...there goes the dreams of gaining a HD in math...

So you see, even my friends think the same thing about Maths. Sigh...God bless us all. And when I get home, I find out someone still hasn't gotten the idea of leaving alone already. This someone sent me 2 smiles on Friendster! WTF? And Sree thinks I'm evil because of this matter. I don't care. And she told me that he called my friend to find out about me. Huh? You seemed ok when I said I wanted to leave you, and now you want to know how I'm doing? I'm fine anyway...I may not have a boyfriend at the moment, that doesn't mean I'm unhappy! I'm happy where I am. LEAVE ME ALONE ALREADY! Sree thinks he reads my blog, but I doubt it. Can you imagine someone writing you nice things somewhere else when you actually write bad things about them? I don't think he'd send me anything if he actually reads the things I write in here! When I asked whether we could stay friends, he said *I can't be your friend, since I love you too much*. CRAP...whole load of BULLSHIT!

I wished I would find love, I mean someone who'd love me for who I am. But I know, it's impossible. Since the people I really like, are either taken or interested in someone else. Pathetic isn't it? But I'll be content if I'm destined to be single in life. I'd like to find an Italian-English bloke, who speaks very fluent English and supports Arsenal (if he were an MU fan, I can't tolerate him) or Spurs or even Chelsea, has an incredibly sharp nose, brown/blue eyes, and also short brown hair. Haha...impossible, maybe. I have high expectations anyway. And no, I don't him back in my life. Period.

I'd like to thank FarahMexx for visiting my blog...though it's pretty long-winded, and now it's PINK! Hehe...Thanks dear!

I'm actually interested in that new Italian drama shown on TV3. *Laws of Love*. The guy named Marco is so hot!!! You have got to see it to believe it. I saw Lee Ryan today, on TV obviously. Damn, he looks as gorgeous as always! I love LEE RYAN! Hehe...

I'd like to meet Kuno Becker. Not sure why, but I just want to. People said GOAL! was fun...but I think I'd stick to Bend It Like Beckham. And yeah Mar, I saw Steven Gerrard in the making of GOAL! So I have a strong feeling he's in it too! Let's go already-lah! Idiot! =P...

Anyway, I have to go now. Have to finish my cue cards for my presentation for Maths. John Nash. Presenting it next Friday...procrastination is bad. Learnt it from Wanie. And also from past experiences. The weather of late has been rather cold and wet. Suits the mood I've set myself in.

*Bluesy* out!

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Chelsea!

Okay...first up, Chelsea won 4-0 against Real Betis! *Whee*. Scorers: Didier Drogba, Ricardo Carvalho (funny goal this one) , Joe Cole (beautiful shot) , and Hernan Crespo (Shaun Wright-Phillips' cross was spectacular!)!. Happy!

Then Mdm Goh...she thinks I'm Christian! Due to the very English name, and to my cousin who works there who isn't a Malay. And now people know, I do not ride bicycles. Pathetic, I know. Then at 10.30 a.m., I got to know that our First Lady has passed away, after battling breast cancer for quite some time. God bless her soul. Sad.

I'm not too sure bout this news, but I think Frank Lampard is in the movie GOAL! with Becks, Zidane, Raul, and Alan Shearer! I have got to go see this movie! Well, maybe after watching CORPSE BRIDE that is! Mar, let's go watch both these movies! *Miang*-ness to an ultimate high!

Study Skills exams tomorrow...then, MERDEKA! LOL...see you later.

*Bluesy* out!

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Feminist...me?

I'm a feminist. I just noticed it today. When Jonathan asked Sylvien whether she has ever used a screwdriver and she said yes, he actually said this:

*If you said you've never touched it before, I understand. I won't be surprised!*

Me, Cheetah, and Roya got defensive.

*That's a sexist remark* -Roya-
*Yeah, shows that we are weak or something* -Me-
*It's really sexist* -Cheetah-

Then Jonathan said:
*No-lah. I didn't mean it that way! I think it's very feminine.*

Then...
*What makes you think it's feminine?* -Roya-
*You're making it sound as though women are incapable of doing things that men are capable of doing. As though we depend on men for everything* -Me-

MEN...what typical remarks do you expect to hear from them? I have touched a screwdriver and used it before! Especially when the screws of my spectacles are loose. Or when I'm doing my usual *self experimentation* skills. I can use the hammer (despite the nails always end up crooked!). What makes you think women are inferior to men?

Sure, when we girls say we LOVE football, the first thing guys would think:

*This girl sure like DAVID BECKHAM, CRISTIANO RONALDO etc one. Don't know anything bout football, want to say love football!*

Don't kid yourself, people! I know some guys who idolise Beckham and Cristiano 'oh-so-gay' Ronaldo and don't know anything bout football! I know guys who dislike football (what are you, crazy or something?). At least we don't go around for some *hot young thing* in football and say *OMG...So gorgeous!*. Well, there are some girls who squeal like that. But NOT me. I see the footballer's talent, then I like him. Like me liking Frankie. I didn't look at his face and say: *This guy's so hot. I'm going to support his team!* I was already supporting Chelsea when I realised how talented he was! The first match I saw him in action was the match Chelsea played against MU, where he scored the winning goal. From then on, I adored him! When I say I play football, people go: *You're a girl.*. So what? It's not like men are the only people who can play THE BEAUTIFUL GAME.

We're bad drivers. so, sue us already! But did you know, that there are women drivers who are making it big in motor racing? In fact, they're a lot better and faster than their male counterparts. Not all women drivers are bad. Male drivers with an ego the size of an ostrich egg are no better anyway!

Just because we're women, it doesn't mean we can't do things men do, and also things besides cooking, clenaning, and laundry! We CAN, in fact do it better than men! So all you men who think we're weak, think again! IT ONLY MAKES US STRONGER, WHEN YOU SAY WE CAN'T DO IT!

*But just for you, I'll bite my tongue...*
-This line goes out to people (men, I mean!) who know me and are able to tolerate my nonsense. My passion for football, F1, sleeping, chocolates, and blue stuff, and earrings. My lack of interest in cooking, ironing clothes and make up. All that jazz.-

Getting very emo lately. Guess what I told my dad this morning?
*Don't be so emo so early in the morning!*

I mean, he gets so riled up in the morning when the traffic situation in Jalan Sentul gets out of hand, and when people jump the queue at the one lane road at Jalan Mahameru.

I have a slim chance of scoring in my Finite Maths exams. My mind just went blank for the whole exam, thaks to the impending headache I suffered from since my Computing Principles lecture. It was like, my memory got erased, and I couldn't do any of the questions. My mind was blank. And it was Maths for crying out loud, something I know I'm not too bad in! If I don't do well here, I will SCORE in my finals. Promise. Just pray I'm able to scrape at least 20 marks out of 40. Praying...will you help pray for me too?

*Bluesy* out!

Monday, October 17, 2005

R.AGE group pic...


Us with Douglas Lim.

Top: Priya (the singer) , Adrian (the one with all the one-liners) , Jo Weng (the pianist), Douglas Lim, Franz (the Liverpool fan who taught me that Steven Gerrard is human and he has a right to err and change his mind!), Sylvien (the one in the black shirt, an England FC fan!)

Bottom: Eddie (the Daniel look-alike) , Roya (the one with the cute voice) , me (Was I trying to pout? I have the neck of an ostrich!), and Materlline aka Ching Hooi(the one in the white shirt, also the cutest girl in class!).

What I'm feeling now...

I feel like slapping someone now. Nothing new to you guys I suppose? For some unidentified reasons, I'm feeling frustrated. *Sighs* I bet someone is trying to bluff me in order to make herself look superior to me!

. B . I . T . C . H .

Feeling a little emo, aren't we, Rowena Julian? Like Ah Yang said *Winning isn't everything, girl*. What would I do if I didn't have people like Ah Yang? Oh yeah, slap people as always. Hehe...

In case you're wondering who is Julian, that's my other nickname. Well, one of the many nicknames I own. My parents were planning to name me Juliana, but since one of my cousins is Juliana, so they decided to go for Rowena. And from that one name, you can create a few other names. Like *Ah Lian*, *Anna*, *Anne*, *Julie*, *Julia*, *Julez*, *Ah Yan*. By the way, I only created Julez. The rest...go ask Mar. She IS an idiot. =P...

I nearly cried on my way for my English test, since I thought I was LATE! But thankfully I arrived in time, and I managed to control myself. English was okay, but I think my topic sentence is screwed up. God bless me. Hope my answers are right, and that I'll score higher than the people I really don't want to see scoring higher marks than me. I'm an incredibly sore loser. I hate it when people beat me in English. That IS my forte, and no one can steal it from me. NO ONE! Just pray for the best.

Had lunch at Dunkin Donuts with Priya, Ranchithaa, Roya, and Yas. Somehow, me and Yas had the same reason of not fasting, and the fact that we had it the same day! Coincidence-lah! Not like we planned it or something like that. And Jon does not understand the term *Mahu tengokkah?*. Adrian nearly lost his car keys to Sylvien. Haha...and we nearly cried over a watch! Hahaha...tell you about it later. Since my mum has already started issuing her warning notes. And I have my Computing Principles to study! Will update when I have the time.

*Bluesy* out!

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Rotten luck

Juan Pablo Montoya has undoubtedly got the *rottenest* luck this season. He drove into the drain cover which was protuding on the track, and ended the race, and unfortunately that costed McLaren Mercedes a shot at the Constructors Championship. Renault are CHAMPIONS. No matter what happens I still love JPM and Kimi Raikkonen. Nice to see Massa score some points for Sauber Petronas on his last outing for them. Since he's going to drive for the PRANCING HORSE, FERRARI. Bless you, man! Best of luck while you're there. I actually cried seeing Montoya out of the race. Pathetic, I know.

Liverpool finally won! Arsenal unexpectedly lost to WBA! MU won...still, Chelsea rocks! And RVN has got 8 goals, while Frankie has got 7! He'll beat RVN, I tell you.


Malaysia has experienced a tornado for the first time! It occured in Langkawi, a few metres of Tanjung Rhu, and lasted for 10 minutes! The world IS coming to an end...soon. I cried again seeing those kids in Pakistan who are suffering due to the earthquake. Sad...

*Bluesy* out!

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Frankie...gay?

This is, not true. As far as I'm concerned, that is. Leave the man alone already! *Sighs*...can't imagine if he were gay. I'll be...devastated. Well, it's not like I'm planning to marry him or something like that (I can't do it anyway, since he has a daughter already). It's just that, you know, to hear a rumour so vile like this can really bum you down. Frank Lampard is not gay! Argh...it's not true! He's not gay! Let his footwork do the talking! If it's true, will I stop adoring the man? Answer is NO! I will ALWAYS love Frank Lampard! Regardless of his sexuality issues!

Enough of that emo-filled first paragraph. Chelsea are leading 5-1 to Bolton. 2 goals from Frankie, 2 more from Drogba, and 1 from Eidur Gudjohnssen (finally, nice to see him break the duck's egg already!)! I remember last season, Frankie scored two goals for us against Bolton and thanks to those two goals, we sealed the Premiership title after 50 years. Happy.

Next weekend, we're going *White Chicks style* SHOPPING! We now have got new stuff at home. New fridge, new washing machine, and new furniture set. Might be getting a new car soon. My dad is so keen on getting the latest HONDA CITY! The car is truly...UGLY. I'd prefer a TOYOTA VIOS. Or even a NISSAN SENTRA. Maybe a PERODUA KELISA. Anyway...it's not my car, and I don't want another *furniture tantrum* episode to ensue if we get a different car. Hope I can go out to buy a dress for the HMC Ball which is on the 11th of November, 2005. And a pair of blue shoes too. Hey, I'm a well-balanced girl! I love sports, and I love shopping! Disagree? Your wish.


I'm not fasting starting today. *Red dot day* arrived as expected. So, one week of normal food-indulging sessions. Bummer.

AND FRANK LAMPARD IS NOT GAY! ARGH...RUBBISH!

*Bluesy* out!

Friday, October 14, 2005

Short note...

Firstly, I got 35.5 out of 40 for my English quiz. I had the highest score, at least that's what Madam Goh told me. So, good thing. Like Chelsea have let their football do the talking, I'll let my English scores do the talking!

Then, I handed in my Study Skills journal today after completing it at 3 a.m.! And for that reason I didn't fast today since I knew I would feel weak with this lethargicness I got myself into. Procrastination is bad. I learnt my lesson well. I have another journal to hand in before the final exams kick in. I will start early. Promise!

Finally, my mid-term exams officially start on Monday! Starting off with English, then Computing Principles, Finite Maths, and Study Skills. Bless me!

And yes, England won over Poland 2-1, thanks to goals from Michael Owen and Frank Lampard! Frankie keeps getting better and better. He rocks! You know who I'd like to see as captain instead of Becks? JT, or even Michael Owen. Maybe Frankie could do us some good if he were captain also. But Sven will stick with his right-hand man, so our skipper IS David Beckham.

*Bluesy* out!

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

I am solo, but not lonely...

I'm so irritated with a certain someone (names shall not be used in order to save myself from being slapped whatsoever). He keeps sending me things when I am not willing to receive. And the headline would go *Hi Darling/ Hey Sayang*. For the love of God, people, just bugger off already! I'm not into you anymore, leave me alone already! Idiot. Mar's right. Idiots are everywhere. So, we just have to deal with their antics nonetheless. Thanks, Mar.

Will continue late. Have to finish my Study Skills journal...2 to go!

*Bluesy* out!

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

My high level of emo-ness...

My high level of emo-ness, is somehow, unexplainable. I get easily upset over things that are of no concern to me, meaning that is not directly linked to me. Apart from that, I get really frustrated when people try to correct me about my mistakes. I'm stubborn and incorrigible. I hate admitting my mistakes. I like to believe I'm right. All the time. No two ways about it.

The more I get frustrated, the more I feel like slapping people. The more I feel like slapping people, the more I frustrate my parents (due to the constant grumblings I do, verbally). The more I frustrate my parents, the more I feel upset with myself more being totally not satisfied with everything that's going on in my life. See the vicious cycle I have to deal with? Argh...

I got so disheartened reading this headline: *The earth swallowed the children*. I cried. Really. No joke. Even Mar did. She really loves kids, and for her to see them suffer like that, is really something she cannot grasp well. My heart goes out the people of India, Afghanistan, and Pakistan who were gravely affected by the earthquake. Bless you all.

I just don't understand something. Someone I know never realised that the word *punctuality* actually exists. Though I know it does not exist in MY dictionary, but I know it does since my dad loves to harp on the fact that I have no respect for punctuality. And what's *beautous* by the way? I have never seen that word in my entire life! And I'm so damn smart. I figured out that the word *gay* can be changed to *gaiety*, and not *gayness*! Thank you, Pn. Ainon! Don't really know why I had her in mind, but if it weren't for her, I'd probably stick to *gayness*! And there I was, asking my friend about something, and people just butt into my conversation ask have the audacity to ask me *You understand or not?*. Hello, I'm not talking to you, I'm talking to someone else, so don't be rude to interrupt the conversation. And this is the person who asked me *Is there such a word as PUNCTUALITY?*! Accurate is ACUTE, for that person I mean, when it should be ACCURACY. And of all the things to do, you just had to ask my friend why was she so emo today after hearing a certain song. Look, she might not want to disclose the matter to you, or even anybody else for that matter. But why ask her that question when everyone's in the room? Don't you realise you're putting her down? And of course, she tells you nothing's wrong, since I think she's miffed at your *kaypoh* attitude and doesn't want you to know she's hurting within. If she was upset, I'm sure she'd talk it out to me or even my other friend, but not you. Don't think you can go round solving other people's problems, so that you look like a hero!

Priya sang in Chinese for us today, and Jo played the keyboard. One word: INCREDIBLE. Wish I had some talent. Wait, my talent is kicking and slapping people! LOL...and I wish people would stop thinking that they can sing when they know they can't. I mean it's okay if you sing in the vicinity of your home, but not in public! I know when and where to sing, ok? So don't mock me.

I have another 2 journal entries to do for my Study Skills! Yay..should get it done by tomorrow. If nothing goes wrong I hope.

If you think I'm grumbling too much, then please ignore my high level of emo-ness okay? I just hate it when I get riled up for no reason. And yes, I want to adopt a koala bear. Let's stay in Australia! And Charlie is a menacing crocodile! Mar, don't give me that look.

*Bluesy* out!

Monday, October 10, 2005

Me and Douglas Lim...

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Okay, I know I look weird in this picture, but ignore that, will you? At least he managed to stifle a smile! Me and Douglas Lim, ROAD R.AGE, 6th October, 2005.

Shortie...



The guy is so tall! I admit I look so small here. Me and Vick at the ROAD R.AGE event on the 6th of October, 2005.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Updates, me and sports!

Ok. I've posted up about 3 pics. More to come, I promise. Changed the layout. And I know people that know me like a book will probably wonder why I'm so *pinky*, right? Truth is, I've been told by someone that I still haven't transitioned myself out of the tomboyish self. I can be girly if I want to, anyway. I chose this layout since it looked somewhat nice to me. Comment, comment, comment!

On Friday, Su Tze gave me a hairclip from Evita Peroni for my birthday. A blue one! She also gave me a note. I cried reading it, since it was so touching. I'm so lucky to have her as my friend. I'm keeping the note under my pillow. I've read it so many times. I feel so touched. *sniffs*...I'm a softie, so what? It doesn't show I'm weak!

And England won against Austria, thanks to a penalty converted by Frank Lampard! 1-0 is pretty much unconvincing, but we got the three points we needed. Now all that's left is the match against Poland. We really have to win that. Otherwise, bye bye World Cup 2006! And I think that we should NOT include Peter Crouch in the starting XI, since he seems lost. Walking beanpole, Mar calls him. =P...Hail England's new penalty taker, FRANK LAMPARD!

Apart from that, Kimi Raikkonen won the Japan GP after starting from the back of the grid! Amazing! You should've seen the way he overtook Giancarlo Fisichella at the last lap! Sheer brilliance! People thought *Kimi to take the chequered flag? No way! He's got like, 20 seconds to catch up with Fisichella! It's virtually impossible for him to catch Fisichella!*, but I kept my finger crossed. Montoya didn't finish, as Villeneuve bumped into him, forcing him off the track and bumping into the wall. Stupid Villeneuve! Mar, let's go slap him! Sato is one reckless driver. He should probably be banned from driving on normal roads. Because of him, Jarno Trulli didn't finish his race! And in the first lap, he bumped into Rubens Barichello! Michael Schumacher is one hell of a stubborn old goat! He refused to let Kimi and Fernando through! Admit it-lah old man, you are not as fast as those two young ones, why hold on, pretending like you're young like them? Renault are ahead of us in the Constructor's Championship by two points. But we'll bounce back in China, provided that the backmarkers don't bump into us to take us out of the race!

More pics to come later. When I'm not tired. See you around!

*Bluesy* out!

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Marion!




















Me and Marion Caunter of 8TV. Lovely lady!

The pic that appeared in the newspaper...


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If you look hard enough, you can spot me and my mates! Can you see how near I was to Adam? Seen here is Kishore, the lead singer of My Favourite Band.

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Vick performing *I Believe I Can Fly* at the ROAD R.AGE event on the 6th of October, 2005.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Whee

Firstly, I'm already 18, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself! My parents gave me a blue handbag, a blue flower corsage, and a pair of silver earrings! Left home at 7.40 a.m.! Reached there at 8.10 a.m. and just when I thought I was late, I saw Kylie and Ranchithaa in front of me. Just then Disha came and wished me *Happy Birthday* and Ranchithaa hugged me! My English quiz was ok, somewhat *do-able*. Then, had Computing Principles tutorials, when they wanted to sing me a song, I went *NO! Don't sing!*. Durga, her cousin, Vijaya, and Disha gave me a soft toy! And Kylie gave me an anklet (my first!) but claimed that that one was the last one as she had wanted a similar one too! She told me that since I felt so lonely a few days back, so she gave me a present to mark that I wasn't alone and that she'd always be there for me! So touched! Marked our quiz paper, had 32 1/2 out 50. It's not too bad, but hopefully he's not going to use that marks, since he did say he's not going too! I think I did better than a lot of people I know. But that doesn't mean I will not revise! Then had Mr. Chen's class! OMG...I was so eager to finish his class so that we could hop over to the KPD block for the R.AGE event. Immediately after his class ended, all of us ran to the bus, but Kylie and Su Tze wanted to go to the loo first. By the time we got to the bus, we saw it was almost full. So we thought of waiting for the next one, when Priya, who was already in the bus, told us we could still come up! So we did. Managed to get a seat at the back!

By the time we got to the KPD block, it was damn crowded! And we couldn't see anything (blame me for being short!), but we managed to get a good view when we shifted ourselves to the front, we were so near with the stars! Me, Priya, Roya, Su Tze, Kylie, Sylvien, Materlline, Adrian, Jo Weng, Eddie, Jonathan, and Franz were so lucky to get front row. I saw Adam and Marion from the 8TV Quickie, Rydee and Vick from Malaysian Idol Season 1, and Douglas Lim. Sadly, Reshmonu wasn't there! Managed to get some pics taken! But I didn't get a pic with Adam, he left earlier! I snapped pictures with Marion(I hugged her! She's gorgeous!), Vick(Hugged him too! He is so tall and skinny!), Douglas Lim(He is so funny, he kept making funny faces while taking pictures! Hugged him too!). We took a group pic with Douglas! *United, we are!*. Then, I didn't manage to get a pic with Rydee, so I saw her sitting in the VIP area, I told Jonathan that I haven't gotten a picture taken with Rydee. So he called one of the officials there and asked whether I could snap a pic with Rydee. And Rydee said ok. And then Jonathan unceremoniously told Rydee that it was my birthday today! And she wished me and shook my hand. Then she asked me whether I was 19, and I told her I'm 18. Rydee is shorter than me. I thought she'd be slightly taller.*Whee* you have no idea how I'm feeling now! *Super-duper happy and tired*! It was the best birthday ever! Most memorable by far! And then, we went to the cafeteria since the others haven't eaten. Then, from the cafeteria window, we saw them, so Adrian banged the window since he was the nearest one to it, and all of us waved, and they waved back! I know, we were nuts! The guys asked to take their pics with Marion. The guys meaning Adrian, Franz and Jo Weng. Adrian was like *She touched my hand!*. I went *She hugged me!* Rydee sang *I Will Survive* and *Purple Rain*, while Vick sang *I Believe I Can Fly*. Then a band from HELP's A-Level department had a performance. They sang *Sweet Child O' Mine*, *Wonderwall*, *You and Me*, and *I Don't Wanna Be*. I think the lead vocalist was fine, but the back-up vocalist seemed to be drunk or was high! Her voice was annoying! Met a few of my old tuition mates. Good to know they still remember me. And yes, on my way out from the cafeteria, I saw my ex-best friend who is studying there. I didn't know whether to smile or not, since she was like staring at me in disbelief! So I chose to ignore her and walked away, and continued talking to my friends. Then came home and checked my mails. A certain someone was kind enough to send me a birthday wish. *Rolleyes*. And I had loads of people sending me testimonials.

So, I'd like to thank Manpreet, Swarna, Mar, Jay, Stel, Della, Lysa, Navee, Durga, Jerry, KayC, Sree, Surya, Kak Nurul, Farhana, Ranjitha, Suren, Chand, and Audrey for the messages and testimonials you sent me! Love you guys so much! And Adrian is one nut who kept saying Happy Birthday to me. And kept on pestering people to sing me a birthday song! Crazy fella! And when my mum picked me up, he kept wishing me so much that other people started wishing me in front of my parents! See what I mean? He was the one who asked me to snap a pic of him and Franz with Marion. What can I say? It seems like we're bonding better now! That's a good thing.

Enough for now. I will update when I have the time. So bye for now.

*Bluesy* out!

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

2 hours time...

In 2 hours time, I will be 18. Well, not exactly. I was born on the 6th of October, 1987 at 1324 hours in University Hospital, KL. So I have, probably, around 14 hours more till I'm officially 18. So sad to see I'm getting older. And Mar's calling me a -SENIOR CITIZEN- already! Stupid fool, don't make me come there and slap you!

Thanks to Swarna for 3 testimonials you sent me on Friendster! I promise I'll get the pics done when I'm free ok? And yes, I admit in any of my recent pics, I look horrible in make up! Kept cringing looking at myself in make up. And I love seeing myself as the real me, without make up. Looks simply original and sweet. Will try and load that pic up. I look so much like a Chindian girl! And Swarna, let me know when you are free ok? Maybe we can meet up for yet another movie! 18SX, 18SG, or 18PL ones preferably! Let me know ok?

And Reshmonu is coming to HELP tomorrow. Great huh? Camera's has been impatiently waiting for a moment like this.

First day of puasa was fun, I walloped three doughnuts from Dunkin Donuts. Bought the *9 free 3* set, knowing what appetites our family has (actually my brother's appetite surpasses the rest of us!). Mum was angry since I bought so much, -Told you to buy the *5 free 1* set right?-. I know them better than they know themselves. LOL...had chocolate, blueberry, and cinnamon doughnuts. I feel stuffed. I can still feel the taste in my mouth. Everything's all jumbled up inside.

And I have a tendency to ask people *What's today's date ah?* when I know what's the date myself! And at times, when I ask them that question, instead of giving me the date, they will give me the day! What to do with this people, I myself don't really know. I asked Franz today *What's the date today?*. And he said *It's the 5th, don't tell me you don't know what's today's date? How can you forget, your birthday's tomorrow!* Oh God, don't even remind me about my birthday! It's sad enough I'm getting older, what's worse, people still think I'm a small girl! They don't believe my age. Can you imagine one of my relatives thinks that I'm 28? That makes me older than my brother by 4 years! *Cries*. I'm going to be 18 soon.

And I have a strong feeling that a certain someone I know is trying to play a trick with me. Someone just added me on Friendster. His e-mail address is almost similar to this certain someone. Everything is almost similar to that certain someone's profile. And that ceratin someone is in his friends list. I have a strong feeling this guy who just added me and this certain someone are actually one person: the certain someone. This certain someone is testing my patience by playing tricks with me. What does this certain someone think I am? STUPID? Truth is, that certain someone is even more stupid than me! Wish I could slap that certain someone so badly now!

Good night then! *Bluesy* out!

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Me...in short.

I'm super-duper crazy and psychotic now. Let's just say this day was fun-filled.

We had Computing Principles at 8 a.m. today! I barely had 4 hours of sleep today! *Frowns*. Then had the Lab part of it from 10-12 p.m.! Then, ate at McDonald's with Su Tze and Kylie. Those two really *siao* already, I'm telling you! Then went to do the PAPI test, and we're supposed to see her the counsellor for the assessment of the report next Monday. Wonder what it'll say about me?

I thought I saw my old childhood friend from primary, Manpreet! It was her, but she didn't see really recognise me though she did see me. And she's leaving to New Zealand on the 21st of this month! So sad!

From 2 p.m. - 4 p.m., we had English classes. And for once in my life, I felt so glad that we are actually starting to be more open and we are gelling better than before. I felt very happy.

I was so happy I started sending my classmates testimonials on Friendster! And Franz thinks I've got a *sophisticated and unique name*. So did that counsellor who was in charge of that PAPI test! And Franz, by any chance you're reading this post, I still dislike Steven Gerrard. I still think Jamie Carragher is the man for me! LOL...Sylvien said in her testimonial that I'm polite and sweet! Mar, shut up! I know you're laughing! Franz added that *rowena is a bright,smart, jovial,easy goin n .....well actually da list goes on but u'll get wat i mean when u bump into her....n surely i dont have 2 mention dat she supports chelsea bigtime...*...loads of compliments, don't you think? I'm jovial, smart, bright??? Mar, don't make me come there and slap you ok? Thanks for all the testimonials I got for today! Am actually impressed that people sent me flattering testimonials since I gave them basically lousy ones!

And I'm amazed at someone I know. Whenever someone criticises her, she gives them back right in their faces, with a smile! I don't know bout you, but I think it's very cynical of someone to do so. She appears to be very blunt, but she puts on a smile that's so cynical whenever she answers back to someone who has irritated her in some way or another. I don't know how she does it. I can't do it. If I'm clearly disgusted with something I get really mad at, and show my utmost disgust towards that person with the right facial expressions! Her facial expressions and the tome of her voice are two contrasting situations. Weird world I dwell in!

And people, it's official! The fasting month begins tomorrow. Good way to lose the extra kilos I've gained for the past few months. Which is, in reality, 0 KILOS. But it's vital for me to lose some weight, another 2 or 4 kilos will do for me. And it's confirmed that The Star's R.AGE people are coming to HELP on Thursday! *Whee*! Camera's ready for some quality pictures. Jehan, wait for me! LOL...good night people!

*Bluesy* out!

Monday, October 03, 2005

Enough is enough...give us the due respect we deserve!

Mourinho wants respect
Sun 02 Oct, 7:08 PM

Chelsea manager Jose Mourinho insists it is time people start respecting his team whose 100% league record remains intact after eight matches. Mourinho, who believes the Premiership title race is far from over, watched as Frank Lampard, Damien Duff, Joe Cole and Geremi all scored at Anfield.

Steven Gerrard had equalised for Liverpool in the first half but the champions nullified the threat of the home side.

"It's eight matches, eight victories, 18 goals - I think it's time to respect my players, my team and
Chelsea Football Club," Mourinho told Sky Sports 1. The Blues are now nine points clear of second-placed Charlton having played a game more. Manchester United are 10 points off the pace with a game in hand, while Arsenal, who are a further point adrift, have also played one match fewer than Chelsea, but Mourinho insists the title race is still far from over.

"Six points, seven or eight, what is that? It gives us permission to make a mistake but not to sleep," he said. "I think they will chase us and try everything to catch us."

Mourinho continued: "We are not a perfect team. I am not saying we are the best team in the world.
"I am saying we are a very good football team with everything a football team should have - big ambition, defensive quality, attacking quality, individual players, creativity."

Lampard admitted talk about Chelsea being supposedly intimidated by visiting Anfield had "riled" the players.

"I think you can see our focus, we had a big point to prove because a lot of things have been said that we were not happy about," he told Sky Sports 1.
"We are not scared of going anywhere. We have kept quiet, we've not shown any disrespect but got a lot thrown at us which made us more determined today. It riled us a bit this week."


-Enough is enough, you sore losers! Even THE SPECIAL ONE is admitting Chelsea aren't perfect! You super-pathetic fools! We have silenced our critics and those who doubt our abilities! So just shut up, and leave us alone already! We don't go round taunting you or anybody else! It riled us, and spurred us to be better too! So shut up! Already!!!-

I better shut up and leave you all alone now. Otherwise, some of you might decide to slaughter me! *Bluesy* out!

Bliss

I'm happy for a few reasons actually. Firstly, Chelsea beat Liverpool 4-1.

Correction: CHELSEA TRASHED/SLAUGHTERED/DRUBBED/TROUNCED LIVERPOOL 4-1!

I didn't watch the match by the way, to see all four goals from Frank Lampard, Damien Duff, Joe Cole and Geremi, since I don't have Astro ( I live here so I must deal with whatever that happens here, and blame my parents for not putting Astro in this household!), but I managed to get the live commentary from the Yahoo! UK & Ireland site, but only up to the first half. By then, the score was 2-1. When Frank Lampard scored the penalty, I went *Yes, the egg broke already!*. But then minutes later, Steven Gerrard scored and I said *Gerrard pulled one back for Liverpool? Dang!*. And then, Duff scored one more for us. Then, I went to sleep since my dad has told me something about shutting off the main electricity supply if I am still on the computer after 12 midnight. Asked Dayani's brother to send me a message about the score. And he did at about 1 a.m. (yes, I was still awake!), saying that we beat Liverpool 4-1! He's a Liverpool fan and clearly he was too disappointed to talk to me, so I didn't want to press any further on the matter. 4-1? WOW...I am impressed and I have to see the Goals Highlights show on NTV7 tomorrow. Not since 1969 has Liverpool been beaten so badly at their home stadium of Anfield.

Mar went to watch the match with her 4 sisters. 2 MU fans, 1 Liverpool fan, and the Chelsea fan in Eliza(who slept during the UEFA Champions League match between the two teams). And they were in the Chelsea side of the crowd, and when Steven Gerrard equalised for Liverpool, Jen unceremoniously shouted *GOAL!!!* and every Chelsea fan in the stands were staring at her. LOL...and I really feel for Mar by the way. Whenever Liverpool loses to Chelsea, Jen will pull a long face and sulk all day, prompting Mar to bring her shopping for she claims it's therapeutic (not to mention, wasting money!) after having a bad day. Jen, if you're reading this, eat chocolates. It's better (and cheaper too!) than shopping for stuff you won't be using later on in life. And this time around, Eliza didn't sleep, since she had a feeling that this was a match *worth watching*. Smart girl.

And I don't know why Rafa Benitez said that we're afraid of Liverpool anyway. Do we go round telling people that people should fear us since we have loads of money to throw around? Though I know JM has said Liverpool was not the better side in last season's Champions League campaign. Liverpool are a great team, heck, I have great respect for them, especially Jamie Carragher. He seems to be the only player in Liverpool who is working his ass off on the pitch. Of course, I don't have Astro to actually comment on the other players of Liverpool, but I watched Jamie Carragher during the finals of the Champions League and I thought that he showed true determination and passion for Liverpool. He played on even though he was in pain. One word: AMAZING.


I know that I have a lot of friends who are Liverpool fans, but I have to say this: *Please respect us, and leave all this taunts and unwanted side comments about us behind. We're sick of it. We will never break no matter what you say or do. We are not perfect, we know, but question is, who is perfect? We are all not perfect anyway!*

On the way to class this morning, I saw 2 rainbows. It was beautiful, I wished I had someone to share it with(when I meant someone, it doesn't necessarily mean I want a guy beside me!). I then thought, *Nothing can go wrong this morning. A rainbow offers hope, what more 2 rainbows in the morning? So beautiful and yet, it promises better prospects!*. I shared my woes of the week with Kylie and Su Tze. They were willing to listen to my pretty petty problems. I thank them for that. And Ranchithaa is prone to suicidal attempts. Roya loves to harm others and also herself. Don't ask why. When I do my PAPI test, then I 'll tell you what I meant by that. I am doing it with those two (Kylie and Su Tze) tomorrow. They actually asked me whether I wanted to celebrate my birthday by going for karaoke sessions! LOL...so sweet.


And someone in my class knows my pseudonym *Jamie*! So fast? I don't mind if people call me Jamie anyway. Even Jerry(my mother's rendang lover!) does it still. She puts my name as Jamie in her handphone. LOL...God I miss her jokes. And she misses my rendang. LOL...

*God knows I love Chelsea, Frank Lampard, Joe Cole, my 2 secret-keepers in college [ST and Kylie]!*


I want to meet Jehan Miskin and Marion Caunter of 8TV! Counting down the days by the way!

And I love beating Su Tze on-line! Only we understand what I'm talking about. LOL...Su Tze, don't be mad ok? *Sayang you...tomorrow I buy you susu, ok?* LOL!

*Bluesy out*

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Moody and restless...

I am definitely NOT my *homely* self for the past 6 days, and I hate not being that person I used. It seems like everyone at home is somehow trying to put the blame on me, when it's not even my fault. I know I'm used to it, but for the past 6 days, I can't say the same. I feel like I can't say, make or do anything I feel like in the house. I feel like I'm wallowing in melancholy, prolonged sadness, and pathetic loneliness. I don't have anyone to talk to at home. And most of friends are busy with their exams, so I don't want to burden them with my pretty insipid problems. Though there's another four days till my 18th birthday, I just don't feel like celebrating it with all these things that are happening in my life. I mean, they'll just be nice to me for that one *so-called* happy day for me, then it's back to square one. I don't want to celebrate my birthday if this is the situation I have to deal with. I remember in school, I used to celebrate my birthday by bringing a birthday cake or even sweets. I remember how I loved celebrating my birthday with my mates, knowing how happy they'd make me feel, since it's my birthday. I just loved having my birthday celebrated with my friends, since I know that even though I may be sad at home, but when I come to school, there are people there who would somehow make me happy and feel really wanted. I felt really lucky having them as my friends. I always thought I made school as a place to forget my sorrows and reignite my happiness, even if it only lasted for 7 hours or so. I still do. Now, when I go to college in a bad mood, I'll be in a good mood during lectures. Because I know that there's someone who is bound to make me smile and laugh to forget all my woes.

Mar, this is the reason why I don't want to celebrate my birthday. I'll be content if someone just buys me a slice of chocolate cake. I don't even want to go out for a birthday dinner. Rather stay at home and worry bout other petty things like *How the peer counselling group on Friday is going to be like?*. I'm not myself. And I hate it, more than anyone else. So please, if you want to wish me, go ahead. I won't feel unhappy whatsoever. But try not to remind of the joys of turning 18 and the joys of turning a year older. I might go and just slap someone accidentally.

Just felt so awkward when Raviena called to wish me. I just wasn't SO excited about my birthday like everyone else, like I did before I had to go through my current ordeals in life. I wish I had someone next to me, so that I can pour out all my petty problems.

-Mar, I need you. More than ever.-

*Bluesy* out!

Funny incident before I brushed my teeth.

Woke up at nine. And read the newspapers before I brushed my teeth. My normal Sunday morning ritual. The day cannot start if I DON"T read the newspapers, before I brush my teeth. Trust me, I really think my Sunday mornings would be crazy if I didn't read the newspapers. Then I got a call from my niece Raviena. And she wished me *HAPPY BIRTHDAY*! I was like *My birthday's not today-la...it's on the 6th!*. She didn't believe me and told me not to bluff her. I told her the truth and she said *My amma said your birthday's today, then never mind-la. Bye bye!*. Cute. Here I am, feeling the least bit excited of my upcoming birthday which will only mark the passing of another year and the coming of a new one, and people have already started sending me birthday greetings! What a situation to get myself entangled in? *Sighs loudly*

I realised something new today. I am not going to worry my ass off about other people's problems. I have my own vendettas and wars to fight. If people are mad with me, I'm not going to grovel at their feet, begging for mercy, and pleading them to forgive me with all their hearts. Sooner or later, they'll come around. If they don't, it's not my problem, not my loss, but solely theirs. Period.

And I think that my parents spend too much money on other unnecessary things. And I think they should buy me that frilled skirt they saw yesterday. That's NOT a watste of money, okay? Consider it as a long-term investment. *Puts on devilish grin*. Any amount of money used for my personal needs is NOT a waste of money. You understand that?

And I'd really like to sing Westlife's *Home* taken from the *Turnaround* album, in the rain. I don't know why I just feel like it. Probably since it's a slow ballad, and it almost as though they sang it in a misty and cold place, to set the tone and mood of the song. And *More Than Words* is our (as in Mar, Della, Lysa, and I) song. Enough said.

And we are playing Liverpool AGAIN tonight. Draw is bad for both sides, win is must for us as losing to the Reds is not an option. Go CHELSEA! *HIDUP THE BLUES!!!*

*Bluesy* out!

Saturday, October 01, 2005

I'm in the mood...

I'm in the mood...
for ranting, romancing, and sleeping all night tonight.
RANTING:
Okay, so there's another 5 days till I hit the big 18. So what? I just feel sad I'm getting older and sadly, not wiser as I anticipated. I still feel like the 4 year old girl I know is STILL in me. The one who always gets herself into unwanted troubles and not having an ounce of sorry after getting into unnecessary consequences later on. The one who refused to leave something that caught her eye at the shop she visited, making sure that her parents buy her THAT particular thing and leave the shop with a smile of victory. The girl who used to get bruises all over the body, and not cry a bit. The girl everybody assumed was innocent but reckless all in one go, because of her tender age. The girl who would talk and talk and talk like there's no tomorrow, hence the nickname *Talkative Brat*. The girl who would smile when she wears jeans and cringe when seen in dresses/skirts and in anything in the shade of pink. Yes, that girl is still in there somewhere only I know. I wish I could go back to be that 4 year old girl and stay 4 forever. I want to be 4 forever so that I don't have to deal with whatever I have to deal with later on when I get older. I don't want to know *What happens when I turn 12? 16? 21? 30? 45? 60???*. I don't want to know when we must fall in love, why there's lots of backbiting and backstabbing, why must I get married, why must I cook for my spouse, why must we have kids, why must we die(though it's part and parcel of life) ? I wish I could make a complete turnaround right now. I hate the way my life is going. It's seemingly looks as though it's getting more and more pathetic and lame. I wish I could stay 4 again and never grow up, like Peter Pan and stay in Neverland (Not Michael Jackson's place okay? Don't even go there!). *Sighs loudly*.
ROMANCING:
Been listening to Westlife's *Turnaround* album(yes, my romancing mood is finally kicking in, so just bear with my nonsensical attitude okay?). I think the most beautiful song on that album would be the wonderful remake of Mr. Big's *To Be With You*. It's amazingly beautiful since the song goes a little bit like this:
*When it's through, it's through,
Fate will twist the both of you,
So come on baby, come on over,
Let me be the one to show you...*
*I'm the one who wants to be with you,
Deep inside I hope you feel it too,
Waiting on the lines of greens and blues,
Just to be the next to be with you...*
*Why be alone when we can be together baby?
You can make my life worthwhile,
I can make you start to smile...*
I would very much like a guy to serenade me this song while strumming the guitar, just outside my house or somewhere equally romantic. It's such a poignant song for any one who wants to be loved and love someone in return. Erm...am I in love? I really wished I had someone to love and pour my affections on them, but I just can't seem to find the suitable one for me. I don't mind being old and alone, as I mentioned before. But it's even better if you have someone to share your love with when you're greying and wrinkled, and still can love you for the same person they met for the first time. Pathetic of me to think of the joys of being in love with someone, when I unceremoniously thought love wasn't for me. Mar, I'm not desperately seeking a potential/prospective boyfriend now! I just love listening to love songs right now, especially when you can no longer associate yourself with them and sob at the same time for the same insipid reason, or pick a theme love song for you and your significant other. The feeling is wonderful. I can be myself AGAIN.
-I don't have to follow you and end up just like one of them!-
SLEEPING:
Just feel so darn lazy to study, despite my mid-term exams are looming nearer too! Right now, I'm just completing my study skills journal. Actually I'm starting on the 1st week's journal! Procrastination is BAD! Kids, don't follow my footsteps. Better get back to work then.
And I think JM looks like a cat (don't know why though, but I just do!). Plus I think, Kavenesh's brother, Darshan has a striking resemblance with JM. In certain angles, he looks A LOT like JM. The boy's only 5! And yes, I noticed today that JM looks a wee bit like Frank Lampard, in certain angles anyway. Ignore my high level of psychoticness.
*Bluesy* out!