Sunday, July 31, 2005

Injustice...

It's incredibly a great day to share with you an emotional roller-coaster day I've been through.

At midnight, I had a good cry. Sat on the balcony and cried my eyeballs out. I was deeply upset because I had been giving a lot of thought about my friends; how much I want to see them, how much I miss their incredibly stupid jokes, how much I want to hear their idle chatter, like the good old days. I didn't want to talk to my mum since she thinks I'm bugging her constantly. I can't talk to my dad bout my problems. My brother? He's busy with his work...which he's trying his level best to escape from. So I just let it out by crying and staring into the starry sky sitting at the balcony. And my parents tell me I'm not independent. How I can be independent when they treat me like a sheep in a fenced area: not allowed to venture further than fenced area. They never see it, but at the end of the day the question falls back on them. Who am I to say? If I say anything, I'd probably get a tight slap. So, have to keep it hush hush! At that same moment, I saw my neighbour's dog, sniffing another dog and then it pissed on the other dog, and the latter licked the piss! Disgusting. And that other dog ran away after licking it! And then that neighbour's dog starting peeing all over the fence. At least the dog provided me some needed comic relief! LOL...

Woke up at 11 a.m. feeling way cranky...have you seen me being cranky? Had home-made nasi lemak for brunch. I was cranky the whole morning...nothing seemed to be going right that morning. But then watched Gilmore Girls and the whole day seemed brighter! LOL...

Went online an 2.00 p.m.....Sree was there...and she said something that justified my suspicion. Finally made up my mind after hearing that *justified suspicion*. Thanks a lot for that bit of info, Sree. You are such a darling. And don't worry, I'm okay...I've been through worse things than this(and my dad's constant mood swings is included!)...I'm a lot tougher than you think! LOL...

At 5.00 p.m., got a message from Swarna on Friendster and she thinks Sham is coming back on the 24th of August! Swarna, she's already home...and she's leaving to Ukraine on the 24th of AUGUST! Now that you know, let me know when you are free, then we can plan something. Of course, after your exams we plan something! I was confused! LOL...

Then came my highly anticipated F1 race in Hungary shown LIVE on 8Tv...Kimi won the race and the best part of it all? Alonso did not score any points as he ended up 11th! Juan Pablo didn't finish the race! Feeling? HAPPY!!! Not only that, my favourite protege in the programme *Mentor*, Pija is in the final. Hope she beats Nabil! So happy! LOL...

Then watched Malaysian Idol...and believe me Malaysians are stupid when it comes to SMS votings! All they look for in the contestant is looks and not talent. Atilia who delivered an incredible performance of Joss Stone's *You Had Me* was voted off! She sounded a lot better than Ejay who delivered a fumbling-bumbling-mumbling version of Mariah Carey's *We Belong Together*...if hadn't known she was singing that, I thought she sang a Chinese song! Trish getting the boot was surprising! I really thouhgt Ash whose fake rendition of Gavin DeGraw's *I Don't Wanna Be*, was leaving the top 11! Two incredibly great singers are gone, I just hope Malaysians don't vote for looks, but vote for talent instead! I'm only watching Malaysian Idol to root for Azam(I love his hair), Adam(he's natural), Faizull(he rocks my socks off!), Nita(the way she delivered Anastacia's *Left Outside Alone* amazed me!), and Farah(she's got the talent and the looks!). If they go out in the coming weeks, I'll stop watching Malaysian Idol! LOL...

You might be wondering why I'm using LOL so often? I seem to be using it lately and lately, I notice I say things which might sound offensive to people. I'm critically and brutally honest lately. LOL...

And yeah, I'm solo. Once more...this time I mean it! Yay to singledom! I'm happy! LOL...

*Bluesy* out. Good night!

Saturday, July 30, 2005

I hate it...

I hate it when...

1. my mother eats durians...the whole house stinks! It's bad enough I can't tolerate the scent of the damn durians, and she will smile coyly when she eats the thing(I can't help it, she's my mother!)!
2. my mother cooks something with egg, for example egg curry. I have a low-tolerance to eggs, and she makes it for lunch and dinner...and my brother is (supposedly) allergic to beef. So my mother is technically clueless on what to cook for us. Talk about being picky eaters.
3. Zahid appears on TV. He looks so much like a clown. Makes me feel like taking a towel to protect myself from the mental torture I have to go through when I see Zahid. Reminds you of Ford Prefect, no? Any Zahid fans out there, please don't slap me!
4. I see my neighbour's son rides his bicycle and modify his bicycle. Makes me feel stupid for not being able to ride a bicycle for God knows how long. I hate seeing kids doing stunts on their bicycles! Makes me feel useless!!!
5. my mother asks me to peel the oranges. The oranges seem to be *unpeelable*(if there were such a word, but you get what I mean!). It's either the oranges slip out of my hands or the thing that I peel come out in broken pieces!
6. people condemn about Malaysian sports personalities. For goodness sake, just leave them alone. It's nothing new, you know. The thing about when they win some tournament, they're hailed as some national hero, but when they lose it, they get called all sorts of things! It's nothing new...it's the usual Malaysian attitude. So stop complaining already!
7. my dad is angry. Everytime he needs to do something when he's angry, it seems like he does it half-heartedly.
8. people who don't know who I am start condemning me. I hate it when people say things bout religion and me mixing around with non-Muslims. What the heck is that about? At least I'm not doing something which is demoralising and degrading to boot! What that woman said to me will never be erased from my mind...she asked me *Awak ni Islam ke? Ingat megah sangat ke bergaul dengan orang bukan Islam?*...I really felt insulted and I wanted to shift school then...after my trip to the States, I was a bit more receptive to insults like that.

And I'd like to add...the girl who lives five houses away from me, ran away (AGAIN) when she saw me standing on the balcony when she was also on the balcony. I'm terrifying, petrifying, and horrifying...I have three heads and I suck blood, need I say more?

Good night...*Bluesy* out!

Friday, July 29, 2005

Lyrics

"Where The Story Ends"

[Flava]
I just want you to listen,
Troubled minds of the troubled times,
Keep yourself together, don't listen to other peeps,
Cos a lot can happen on the streets,
And peer pressure is a killer so listen to there wise words that I preach,
It ain't safe out there, I know this from experience,
Cos this is serious, and that's how lives get messed up,
I took this time to, just eight bars to explain to the kids what's up.

[Kenzie]
You're livin' in dangerous minds, dangerous times, thug life,
You're growing up on the street, all that crime,
I've been there before, I've been through it,
I realise the pain, I'm drawn into it,
It feels terrible,
When you're on another level,
To the rest of them, trainers, clothes,
You're not in with the trend, it's just a teenage beef that's bothering you,
It's just a phase in life you'll have to go through.

[Chorus]
You know I never will amount to you, but is it pain you gotta put me through?
You know I never will live up to you, and all that you do,
You never tell your enemies from friends, and life will never be the same again,
You never know where the story ends, that's right my friend, that's where the story ends.


[Krazy]
I hear these things again and again and again,
Dress to impress for a friend,
All it does everytime I hear will it ever stop?
It just sends me round the bend,
It ain't easy to be a teenager,
I should know it puts your life in danger,
Do you ever really think that it will stop?
All the muggings and the bullies and weapons I think not.


[Freek]
I can sit and write lyrics all day,
But my teenage problems never fade away,
My fashion sense never lead astray,
My smell, my phone is what portrays,
The person that I am, the person that is me,
Whatever you believe, imagine or perceive,
A brethren or a chief, educated or naive,
My popularity brings, friends and enemies.


[Repeat Chorus]

[Rocky B]
Teenage life you've gotta deal with it somehow,
No point in complaining gotta live with it somehow,
Unfair job but you're still with it somehow,
It ain't fair but you've gotta get through it somehow,
All the teenagers that have had enough, that are tired of scuffs and just want love,
Just take some time unleash your mind and you will find it somehow.


[Spike-e]
What's wrong kid could be making it,
teenager in trouble and you're hatin' it,
You wanna leave the crowd you're with, lead your own life,
But I know you're scared of it, in a week there's 7 days,
168 hours and a million ways,
Everyday's different but your life will change,
Trust me it will never stay the same again.


[Repeat Chorus]

[Melo-D]
Growing up seems so hard when you're young,
You never wanna listen always wanna have fun,
try to make things right but it sounds wrong,
People say the best years come when you're young,
You never listen to what people say,
Always wanna try and do things in your own way,
Never think straight always play life as a game and in the end it's another life thrown away.


[Reepa]
Teenage troubles thoughts that run through your head,
Trying to impress cos of what your mates said,
Wanna get in the crowd you ain't got the clothes so you're out for a teenager
That's what life's about,
The pressure of the drugs, violence and racism that faces them
It's a part of life don't ruin it for yourself or you might end up by yourself.

[Strider]
You think about back in the day,
Of what you could have had but you threw it away,
To be the top boy on the street,
To be the boy everybody wanted to be,
Can't you see.


[Repeat Chorus to Fade]

Just wanted to share this wonderful piece of work by the Blazin' Squad. This is a small reminder to all to be your true self; don't change whatever ideas or thoughts you believe in to go with the flow; and more importantly, never, ever think that suicide is the ONLY solution to your problems. Suicide are for cowards...and it's not the EASIEST way out of your troubles or woes. And don't ever take drugs. Taking drugs is as bad as taking your own life! So don't do it!

I miss Blazin' Squad...why aren't they getting much publicity in Malaysia? It seems like all the UK artistes aren't getting much publicity here. Take for example the man who's always in some scandal, Darius. The only artistes from the UK that are actually receiving much publicity are Joss 'the wonderful' Stone, Blue, Robbie Williams, and some other people. Malaysians seem to listen more of the music the artiste from the US are making. And believe me, Blazin' Squad are a lot better than B2K or the likes. This one is specially for Helen, who adores the band like there's no tomorrow! Well then, *Bluesy* out!

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Yee-ha!

Swarna!!! Big news: Sham's back!!! She came back yesterday morning! And she called me today! And yeah, she said she's okay with our plan...the big question is: When are you free, my dear Swarna? Sham's going back to Ukraine on the 24th of August. Give me a buzz okay, my dear?

Really missed Sham! At first I found out that her sister, Shalini was coming back on the 26th of July, but I didn't know when Sham was coming back. Even her cousin Komala didn't know. But then she arrived before Lini did (she came in the morning, Lini came back at night)! She told me on her way back, a few guys from Kazakhstan were drunk and started slurring and putting their feet up her seat! When the plane passed Pattaya and Langkawi, they started shouting *Pattaya, Pattaya, Pattaya, Kuala Lumpur, Kuala Lumpur!*. Upon reaching KLIA, they started clapping their hands! So *jakun*! Swarna, buzz me asap ok?

Miss all my mates all of a sudden! Navee called me, I called Sree but she was sleeping when she answered the phone so I told her to continue sleeping(Sree, if you're reading this...I so want to talk to you! So, don't sleep!). Yesterday, got a message from an old classmate of mine in primary, Ain Suffian! Gosh, she looks the same, like I said everyone looks the same, I'm the only who looks different! But that's appearance-wise, attitude-wise, might have changed a little bit. Want to know the truth? Ask my friends! LOL!!!

Oh well, got to run now...see you guys soon hopefully! Swarna, buzz me! Good night and *Bluesy* out!

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Passed!

Let me give you the low-down of today's test.

Time: 12.00 a.m.
Tossing and turning in bed.

Time: 1.00 a.m.
Eventually slept. Zzzz...

Time: 3.08 a.m.
Woke up, thinking it was 5.30 a.m. but then took the handphone and saw it was 3.08 a.m.! So went back to sleep. More Zzzz...

Time: 4.30 a.m.
Got up unexpectedly, went back to bed again. Zzzz...

Time: 6.00 a.m.
Handphone alarm rings and I get up. After 10 minutes of rolling on the bed, finally I went down.

Time: 6.15 a.m.
Brush my teeth and went to bathe.

Time: 6.45 a.m.
Uncle Sella's here. Finished my bath, and dried my hair. And ate my breakfast upstairs.

Time: 7.15 a.m.
By the time everything is finished, we (me and my parents) left home with Uncle Sella to Bangi. On the way my dad was talking non-stop. My plans of sleeping in the car died instantly.

Time: 8.30 a.m.
Reached Bangi and everyone had breakfast there (except me). Waited for a friend of Uncle Sella to get my number.

Time: 10.15 a.m.
My number is 134. Had to wait...and my goodness! The queue had easily around 100 over people who did their test today. Sat there feeling rather thirsty and sleepy. Dad asked me to see how those people who took the test today did their parking. I didn't want to since I was afraid I'd forget my steps.


Time: 11.55 a.m.
My number was called. At long last! So waited in line. Then Uncle Sella got me a car, so in other words I actually *potong Q* because I jumped about 6 people in front of me!

Time: 11.57 a.m.
Did my uphill. The first try was not too god since I stopped before the line and the inspector asked me to go down again because he thought that my number was 126. So on my second try, I did it! Passed my uphill.

Time:11.59 a.m.
Time for parking. Was okay at first but I made a small error, an inch my tyre was on the line and I raised my hand thinking it was okay. The man who wasinspecting the parking area asked me whether I carried my hand up. And I told him I did. And he told me to get out of the car since I failed my parking already! I was bummed, I thought *Damn it, I failed? I failed my parents! My brother will probably laugh at me for failing!* And I went to the counter where the other inspector was, and he asked me what's my number and I said *134* and then he said my file wasn't there. He asked me to go get my file from the inspector who was in charge of the hill. Then he was just marking everything, I thought that once you fail, they'll mark everything, meaning that you've commited all those mistakes. But then he marked me as *LULUS*. So I was confused. I thought that once you sign the form, you have to give it back(since I thought I failed). Then he asked me *Nak pergi mana, tunggu dulu! Kalau awak bawa ini, dalam ini ada borang untuk ujian jalanraya, kalau awak ambil ini, nanti tak boleh buat ujian jalanraya!* Confused and blur as usual, I just went over to the other side when he said *Pergi kat kawasan orang tunggu tu untuk buat ujian jalanraya*. So there you have it folks, I passed my Ujian Bahagian 2 due to an error caused by someone else!

Time: 12.05 p.m.
Waited for my turn to go on the road. Uncle Sella got one of his friends to take me for the road test. Felt hungry like the wolf. Muahaha...

Time: 12.20 p.m.
My turn to drive the car on the road. I wanted to adjust the mirrors and all that jazz, but the inspector told me, *Tak payah buat, semua dah sedia dah! Awak pandu saja*...so I did just that. But I forgot to pull down the handbrake, when I started the car and was about to move. Bad start, huh? Tell me about it...so then drove the car out to the junction. I didn't know which route I was supposed to take. Then he asked me *Nak pergi mana? Pusing kiri*...which meant I got to take Route 1! Did okay especially at the roundabout...then he asked me to stop at the corner of the road to pick up another inspector and a guy who was doing his test. It seems that the car they took the battery was weak! So then drove back to the place. And then the man gave me 17/20 for my road test, saying that he gave me a discount. The 3 mistakes I did were:

1. Tidak menentukan gear dalam keadaan bebas.
2. Tidak menggunakan brek kaki/tangan dengan betul.
3. Tidak menukarkan gear mengikut kelajuan yang sesuai.

So there you have it, I'm my mother's latest addition of chaffeurs in the family. Haha...I PASSED! Thank you Uncle Sella!

Uncle Sella dropped us off in Sri Petaling LRT station. Stopped at Bandaraya LRT station and had lunch in McDonald's and I bought two more bands! Red one that read: Stay Forever Young. Blue one that read: Risk taker. I treated them for lunch! And we(excluding my dad), had dessert in Lecka Lecka. Mum had Strawberry and I had After Eight! Yum...Came home at 3.30 p.m. and slept from 4.00p.m. till 7.30 p.m...

Good night everyone. Will update later.

*Bluesy* out!

Monday, July 25, 2005

Short message...

Just a short message to all those reading this, wish me luck for tomorrow's driving test in Bangi! Pretty freaked out! Just wished they would let me take Jalan 1 for the test, because Jalan 1 is less complicated compared to Jalan 2. And also, I am not keen on seeing bodies of dead animals on the road AGAIN on Jalan 2 tomorrow! Jalan 1 is a lot simpler compared to Jalan 2 considering it's a straight road! I can drive on a straight road...so good news for me! Bless me. And I'll give you the updates tomorrow! Cheers from *Bluesy*!

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Zie bengong!

Okay, firstly, let me tell you how scared I am of Tuesday's test. It's like, once I pass my test, I face the world of dangerous driving. It's a world filled with people who claim to be the next Michael Schumacher, or claim to drive better than Fernando Alonso, Kimi Raikkonen, or even Narain Karthikeyan. *You know who you are*...it suddenly dawned upon me: It's such an unsafe place to drive here in Malaysia...we have the most irresponsible and uncourteous bunch of drivers! Believe me, drivers in the US are a whole lot better than us Malaysians...but then again, *I live here so I have to deal with whatever that happens here!*

Kimi must be cursing his luck at the moment, he retired due to an hydraulic failure! Zie, don't feel mad...I know what we can do! We can cut Alonso's fingers off...that way he won't be able to drive and hence, not winning other races! But then again, Lilee won't be too pleased anyway! Montoya was remarkable...from 20th on the grid to 2nd? Amazing! Jenson Button(my mum says he's got a twin named Johnson Thumbtacks...haha, hear me laugh) did well too, the way he overtook Michael Schumacher was fantastic. And really, Giancarlo Fisichella had a hard time trying pass Michael Schumacher. And I don't think Kimi was pushing too hard, he led from the first lap to the lap he eventually stopped. If you tell me Kimi was pushing too hard, what about Montoya then? From 20th to 11th in the first lap itself, then to 9th in the 3rd lap, I can tell you he pushed himself harder than Raikkonen did! But of course, what can I say? I don't even have a P license to my name, and here I am talking like I know so much about cars and driving? *You know who you are, once again*.

Not angry really...just tired of people who think they're a lot better than the sportsmen they see on TV...I hate people who slander our own Alex Yoong for that matter! Give him a chance to drive in probably a Toyota (you can't give him a drive in Minardi!) , and if he makes it, good for him. But if he breaks it, then you can ask him to stick to hosting the F1 show or being the Team Principal of Team A1 Meritus(I think that's it!). Lilee, bear in mind I'm not sticking up for you about him. This is just my humble opinion. If you don't believe in what I say, then I can't change your mind. After all, like I told to my mum yesterday *I have no feelings*...muahahahaha!

Anyhow, you won't get to see the tears I cry...

And for the last time, I DIDN'T KILL THE CAT!!!

And kids, don't do coke (as in Coca-Cola)! Coke sucks! Next time anyone buys me a drink, PLEASE DON'T BUY ME COKE! I LIVE FOR PEPSI! Muahahaha...good night everyone!

*Bluesy* out!

I didn't do it!

Went for my driving lesson today in Bangi...I'm getting better, thankfully. But I am worried. I'm feeling *jitterbuggish*, I'm thinking *Will I pass? Will I knock down the post while I am doing the parking?* and the likes. But after today's lessons, I feel that I'll be able to pass. KFC...not Kentucky Fried Chicken, but Keeping Fingers Crossed! Haha...you'll only know on Tuesday! While driving today, three unexpected things happened.

1. My cousin called me while I was driving, asking for my mum. My hands weren't on the wheel! Okay, maybe I'm exaggerating...one hand wasn't! Got slightly panicky(as usual!).

2. A cat's carcass was on the road. You could see the organs all over the road. The first time we passed by that way, I managed to avoid the body. The second time I couldn't! I ran over the dead cat! And the third time I passed by the same route, I saw the head was separated from the body! Oh no, I separated the cat's head from the body! But that doesn't mean I killed it. It was dead by the time I ran over it. You can't kill something that's already dead, can you? I mean, I know you might be thinking: *So that means I can go round stabbing someone who's already dead?*...it's not like that. If you can't avoid hitting animals(like in my case)that are already dead, that means you're not a murderer because you can't avoid that situation! Though I know it's ethically and morally wrong to do so, but in times of desperation, you just have to!

3. While making a left turn, this dog comes out of nowhere and sniffs the road, and then decides *Okay, this is a perfect spot to shit!* and does just that! On the road where I'm supposed to turn left! Thankfully I managed to turn left, despite the fact that the dog refused to budge from the road! Stupid dog! And of all places to shit, you have to do it on the road? I thought that only cows would do that! Can't you pick somewhere else to shit or something?

I don't know whether to laugh or to scream right now! If I laugh, it means I'm laughing bout the dog. If I scream, it's because of the cat, or for Tuesday's test!

Anyhow, I'll think I'll blog later on at night, after today's race. God bless Kimi. Whenever he gives his post-race speech, I tend to lie on the couch with my head facing the floor(which means my head is not on the couch) and hear him speak English. I understand him better that way. Zie, if you're reading this, don't slap me! I really don't understand a word he says. It's like he's drunk or something...he slurs! And believe me, he speaks better in his mother tongue than English. Zie, don't stare at me like that...*runs away from Lyzzie's menacing stare*!

Goodbye, everyone!

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Hi...

Hello there again...this is my third post for the night. You guys must be thinking: *Goddammit, this girl is so free...three posts in one night?*...muahahaha...might as well enjoy the time I have in my hands, no? The first two posts earlier were just a small reminder to all the Muslim readers visiting this blog. Thanks to the people who sent them to me...Farah and Yasmin.

Today is my dad's 63rd birthday! Happy Birthday Pa, thanks for everything you done for us. All the love, guidance, support, care and prayers you've constantly showered upon us will (hopefully) not go to waste. Wait a minute...that sounded really familiar. Oh yeah...actually lifted it from the card I bought for him. And no, the card is not in front of me...it came straight from the heart(All together now: Aww...)...muahahaha!

I just noticed something: It's amazing to see that no matter how much you go out of the way to help someone in need, and then that someone will forget about you almost immediately once they get what they want. And they will only look for you if they need help or if they are in stuck in a moment that they can't get out of. I'm not meaning anyone in particular, but in general. I'm brutally honest, so please don't get on my nerves. I might say things that you might not like and we might end up no longer talking to each other(that is if I'm acquainted to you all). But if in case you know me, you should know by now that I say things that I probably shouldn't say, but I guess you guys know how to handle the words that come out of my mouth. Take it with a pinch of salt. I'm brutally honest and I'm politically (in)correct! Don't forget that!

Watched today's F1 qualifying for the Hockenheim GP...Kimi's on pole. Montoya spun at the last corner! Damn it...almost could have snatched the pole position away from Kimi! Montoya and Mar define the term *bengong*. Mar, don't slap me...

My driving test is on the 26th of July, 2005. I'm scared, really. Parking and uphill I'm okay. Three-point-turn is improving. But my driving, sad to say, is horrible. Just to freaked to drive. I'm scared I might fail my driving, when I might pass the other three! Keep my fingers crossed...hope I'll pass. Anyway, if I do pass my driving test, we're supposed to celebrate it and my dad's birthday on Tuesday. Where to? Have to wait till Tuesday then.

Anyway, got to run now. Need to go and *lala* now. If in case you're wondering what *lala* means, *lala* is African for sleep. Goodnight! Love, ze *Bluesy* one.

Continuation...

50 Signs of the Day of Judgment From the Words of Allah and His Messenger (sallallahu `alaihi wa sallam)

The Signs are listed in roughly chronological order, although the order is not necessarily precise, especially for those in the future.

This is a brief summary of the signs; there are many books, articles, cassettes etc. which discuss these in greater detail. May Allah enable us to recognise and heed the Signs, and strengthen us in the times of tribulation.

"Are they waiting for anything except the Hour, to come to them suddenly? But its Signs have already come!" (Al-Quran, Surah Muhammad)

Past...
1. Splitting of the Moon.
2. Death of the Prophet Muhammad, may Allah bless him and grant him peace.
3. A form of death which will kill thousands of Muslims. (Understood to refer to the plague of Amwas during the caliphate of Umar ibn al-Khattab.)
4. A major fighting in Madinah (understood to refer to the battle of al-Harrah during the caliphate of Yazid, 63 AH).
5. The Muslim conquest of Jerusalem.
6. The Muslim conquest of Constantinople.
7. Two large groups of Muslims will fight in war.
8. A war between the Muslims and a reddish people with small eyes, wearing sandals made of hair (understood to refer to the Mongol Tatar invasion of the Islamic lands.)
9. A peace agreement between the Muslims and non-Muslims from the yellow race (Chinese, Mongols, etc.)
10. Thirty impostors (dajjal) will appear, each thinking he is a prophet.

Present?
11. Naked, destitute, barefoot shepherds will compete in building tall buildings.
12. The slave-woman will give birth to her master or mistress.
13. A trial (fitnah) which will enter every Arab household.
14. Knowledge will be taken away (by the death of people of knowledge), and ignorance will prevail.
15. Wine (intoxicants, alcohol) will be drunk in great quantities.
16. Illegal sexual intercourse will become widespread.
17. Earthquakes will increase.
18. Time will pass more quickly.
19. Tribulations (fitan) will prevail.
20. Bloodshed will increase.
21. A man will pass by the grave of another and wish he was in the latter's place.
22. Trustworthiness will be lost, i.e. when authority is given to those who do not deserve it.
23. People will gather for prayer, but will be unable to find an imam to lead them.

Future
24. The number of men will decrease, whilst the number of women will increase, until for every man there are 50 women.
25. The Euphrates will reveal a treasure of gold, and many will die fighting over it, each one hoping to be the one who gains the treasure.
26. The Romans (Europeans) will come to a place called A'maq or Wabiq, and an army of the best people will go forth from Madinah to face them.
27. The Muslim conquest of Rome.
28. The Mahdi (guided one) will appear, and be the Imam of the Muslims.
29. Jesus Christ will descend in Damascus, and pray behind the Mahdi.
30. Jesus will break the cross and kill the swine, i.e. destroy the false christianity.
31. The Antichrist (al-masih al-dajjal, the false christ) will appear, with all his tools of deception, and be an immense trial. He will be followed by 70,000 Jews from Isfahan (present-day Iran).
32. The appearance of Ya'juj and Ma'juj (Gog and Magog), and the associated tribulations.
33. The emergence of the Beast from the Earth, carrying the Staff of Moses and the Seal of Solomon, who will speak to the people, telling them they did not believe with certainty in the Divine Signs.
34. A major war between the Muslims (including Jews and Christians who truly believe in Jesus after his return) led by the Imam Mahdi, and the Jews plus other non-Muslims led by the Antichrist.
35. Jesus will kill the Antichrist at the gate of Ludd (Lod in present-day Israel, site of an airport and a major Israeli military base).
36. A time of great peace and serenity during and after the remaining lifetime of Jesus.
37. Wealth will come so abundant that it will become difficult to find someone to accept charity.

38. Arabia will become a land of gardens and rivers.
39. Society will then decay.
40. The buttocks of the women of the tribe of Daws will again sway in circumambulation (tawaf) around the idol Dhul-Khulsah.
41. A great fire in the Hijaz, seen by the inhabitants of Busra.
42. Three major armies will sink into the earth: one in the east, one in the west, one in Arabia.
43. An Abyssinian leader with thin shins will destroy the Kaabah.
44. The huge cloud of smoke.
45. The sun will rise from the west (its place of setting).
46. A gentle wind which will take the souls of the believers.
47. There is no-one left on the earth saying, "Allah, Allah" or "There is no god except Allah."
48. Eventually the Day of Judgment is established upon the worst of the people, who copulate like donkeys in public.
49. The blowing in the Trumpet by the Angel Israfil, upon which everyone will faint except as Allah wills.
50. The second blowing in the Trumpet, upon which everyone will be resurrected.

This one was sent to me by Yasmin @ Ashley. Wanted to share this with you guys.

Love always...ze *Bluesy* one!

50 signs of Judgement Day...

*When you receive this, say a prayer for the person that sent it to you....There are no costs, but wonderful rewards....Let's continue praying for one another*

As we look at this article we realise how true the Messenger(P.B.U.H) said about these signs of the coming of Day of Judgement. they were prophesied 1400 years ago!!! Take a look...Now this is scary but soooooooo TRUE!!!!
* Camels will no longer be used as means of transport.
* People will ride on saddles that aren't saddles(cars?).
* The distance on earth will becoe short.
* Horses will not be used in wars.
* Muslims will defeat the Byzantines which will end with the conquest of Constantinople(Istanbul).
* The Jews will gather again to live in Bilad Canaan.
* Very tall buildings will be built.
* The disappearance of knowledge and the appearance of ignorance, with much killing.
* Adultery will become widespread, and the drinking of wine will become common.
* The number of men will decrease and the number of women will increase until there are 50 women to be looked after by one man.
* Islam will become worn out like clothes are, until no one will know what fasting, prayer, charity and rituals are.
* Allah will send a disease to fornicators that will have no cure (AIDS?).
* People will begin to believe in the stars and reject AL QADAR (THE DIVINE DECREE OF DESTINY).
* Men will pass by people's graves and say:

"Would that I were in his place"(large amount of sucidal deaths?).
* The Euphrates will uncover a mountain of gold forwhich people will fight over (the river of Alfurat that lies near Syria).
* Two large groups of people will fight one another,and there will be many casualties; they will both be following the same religion (World War II?).
* Approximately 30 DAJJALS will appear, each one claiming to be the messenger of ALLAH.
* Earthquakes will increase.
* Time will pass quickly.
* Afflictions will appear.
* Killing will increase.
* Wealth will increase.
* Women will be wearing clothes but not wearing clothes.

THE PROPHET (s.a.w) SAID: "IF MY UMMAH BEARS 15! TRAITS(QUALITIES), TRIBULATION WILL FOLLOW IT." (DAY OF JUDGEMENT)SOMEONE ASKED,"WHAT ARE THEY,O MESSENGER OF ALLAH?" HE (s.a.w)SAID:
* When any gain is shared out only among the rich, with no benefit to the poor.
* When a trust becomes a means of making profit.
* When paying ZAKKAT becomes a burden.
* When voices are raised in the mosque.
* When the leader of a people is the worst of them.
* When people treat a man with respect because what he may do.
* When much wine is drunk; red wind or the earth swallow them, or to be transformed into animals."

'IMRAN IBN HUSAYN SAID: "THE PROPHET(AS) SAID, 'SOME PEOPLE OF THIS UMMAH WILL BE SWALLOWED BY THE EARTH, TRANSFORMED INTO ANIMALS, AND SOMEWILL BE BOMBARDED WITH STONES'. ONE OF THE MUSLIMS ASKED, WHEN WILL THAT BE, O MESSENGER Of ALLAH?' HE SAID, 'WHEN SINGERS AND MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS WILL BECOME POPULAR, AND MUCH WINE IS DRUNK.'

-THE GREATER SIGNS OF THE HOUR-
The Quran will disappear in one night, even from the people's hearts, and no Ayyah will be left on earth. (Some groups of old people will be left who will say: "We heard of fathers' saying "LAILLAHAILLA ALLAH" so we repeat it).

* The appearance of the MAHDI.
* The appearance of the DAJJAL (Anti Christ).
* The appearance of Ya'juj and Ma'juj (biblical Gog and Magog).
* Isa (Jesus) will come during the time of Dajjal.
* The rising of the sun from the west.
* The destruction of the Ka'ba and the recovery of its treasures.
* The smoke.

This was posted in by Farah on Friendster. Wait for the next one...just thought I'd share this with you all.

Friday, July 22, 2005


Can you guys spot the odd one out? *Hint*: White socks and shoes, *botak* and equally gorgeous! Mar, happy now? Posted by Picasa


Can anyone spot Joe Cole? Couldn't find the close-up on this one...anyone that has this pic, please kindly send it to me...you know how to find me! Posted by Picasa

Sleep

Mar...I knew it! You love that pic of Ruud and Rooney, don't you? Muahahaha...great minds think alike, right? *Evil laugh*

Swarna, thanks for the message. I'm feeling good. Particularly after seeing that picture I just posted. Which reminds me, I owe you a picture, dear! Wait for it, okay? I know it's for my own good, but I just miss the good old days where we used to talk rubbish all day long and pulling pranks! I miss my secondary schoolmates. Oh well, at least I know Sham's coming back from Ukraine soon! Yay...she's back and then we can talk nonsense all day long like before! Swarna, let's plan something once Sham gets back alright? *Sighs* miss my buddies like hell!

Been listening to Boyzone(Mar and Lilee, our heydays!) lately...been wondering bout something. Can you imagine a homosexual guy singing *Ooh...can I touch ya, and do the things that lovers do?* to another homosexual guy? I'm referring to Stephen Gately. Lilee, I know how much you adore him, but don't kill me! *Runs away and seeks shelter from Lilee's menacing stare*...it feels too weird really. I just love this song, *I'll Never Not Want You*...*ooh-whee*. And I watched Lion King 1 & 2 today! The childishness of mine has been running high lately. Frankly I have no clue on that one really!

Anyway, take care and much love from ze *Bluesy*.


Found this rather quaint picture yesterday. Don't they look a lot like their alter egos? Posted by Picasa

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Aww...

Hey there...I am feeling rather upset at the moment. *Sighs*...I feel really bad turning down Navee's invitation to her school's Maxporia this Saturday! And I've stopped playing football already! I have to listen to my parents now. It's like I have to do what they want me to do and not what I want to do. I've been deprived of what I used to love doing. *Is this my life I'm wondering?*...so said Natasha Bedingfield.

I just hate the way things are going at the moment. I hardly see my friends anymore. I wanted to see my friends on Saturday, but my dad thinks *You are staying here, some of your friends are staying in Setapak, Gombak, Jinjang, Kepong. I don't mind if your friends are staying nearby here in our area. And besides, you don't even know how to stand in a bus*...yeah right. I know how to stand on a bus, I've even been to my friend's on house on a bus. Then about my friends not being in the same area as I am in, it'll be a lot worse if we shifted to TTDI. I'll be the one *yang tersesat* in some *ulu* jungle or something. I used to believe that I'm only happy whenever I was in school. I still believe in that fact. Now, I'm wondering whether I'll be able to seek solace in college like how I used to when I was in school. With that new rule my dad came up with, which makes me feel like a bloody hypocrite. It feels like when I go to college, I look like some holy person. But what if my classmates see me on the road, looking rather different than a holy person? I am pretty screwed at the moment. I'd prefer it if my parents don't ask me what I want to do anymore. Well, to a certain extent, that is!

Today, mum ordered gas from the shop. And at that time, I wasn't in a good mood(I start my mornings this way, don't ask why!) and was washing my clothes and my brother's shirt upstairs. So I was hanging the clothes on the balcony when my mum was paying the delivery guy. And after my mum goes into the house, guess what this b*****d does? He starts whistling at me! Bloody piece of f**king shit(sorry for the vulgar language!)! He must have thought I'm some Indonesian maid or something and he was trying to act damn macho and all. I didn' t even look at him, I just put the shirt to dry, and locked the door. I hate it when people whistle at me. Even my brother did that to me yesterday, I didn't look at him. Makes me feel like telling people *I'm sorry, I thought I had a name, or was it just part of my imagination?*.

Anyway, I'm not in a good mood to rant further. If I decide to blog further, you'd probably see more vulgarities being uttered. Good night then...*Bluesy* out!

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

True Colours...

*Yan...you are showing your TRUE COLOURS!*

This is what I said to my self when I bought 3 more of those True Colours bands being sold at McDonalds. This week's ones were definitely a must! The bands had two colours being blended into one band! I bought a green and white one which read *No Excuses* (I think I need to look at it often as I'm always coming up with excuses to avoid something) and a black and white one(makes me feel like a zebra or something) which read *Live Young*(been gunning this one for ages...but the one I had in mind was dark blue!) at first. And then the girl at the counter asked me whether I was a DiGi subscriber or not. And I said my mum is. And she said that if I'm a DiGi customer, the bands cost RM 1.90 each! So bought those two...then later on my dad persisted that I should eat another burger(one is enough for me, don't see any reason I should eat another one?)...so bought another burger and another band which was orange and yellow which read *Grow Up, NOT!*(Very me! Incredibly childish...I want to stay that way for as long as I can). So all in, I have four bands, would very much like to buy more. Yeah, right!

Sorry haven't blogged for the past 2 days. Been busy with my driving. On Sunday was uphill. Yesterday was parking. Today was that three-point turn. OMG...damn hard! But I'll try my level best to get it right! Yesterday while doing parking, this guy(a driving instructor) was speaking to me in Tamil! I was like staring blankly at him then I finally said *Saya tak faham bahasa Tamil*...So funny.

Today, I saw a bunch of these chandelier earrings that were calling out to me *Buy me...I know you want me, so come and get me*...I'm a person who if I see something which pleases my eyes, I must get at least one! And my dad says I'm an impulsive buyer! That's not true!!! Okay, the fact that I bought 3 bands today justifies the fact that I'm an impulsive buyer. Muahahaha! Was supposed to buy cards for Raviena and my dad. But in the end we forgot to buy the card for Raviena(oh dear, that's bad, right?). *Sighs*...blurry is how I feel at the moment.

Slept from 3.30 p.m. till 6.30 p.m. (okay, so what if I'm a sound-sleeper like Frank Lampard?) and there was this incredible picture of the Chelsea squad in The Star. Joe Cole looks so darn HOT even if he's wearing black slippers and white socks (not many people can pull off an act like that!). I couldn't stop staring at the picture. Anyway, got to run!

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Yan n Mar

Now, they are calling me Yan! They changed Miera's name to Mar, and now Julian has been changed to Yan! *Boo-hoo-hoo*...so bad! I noticed that people that I know are getting pretty distant from me, except my schoolmates and classmates that have been with me ultimately through thick and thin. But then again, I might be over-analysing as usual...what I do best, I presume.

Had my driving lessons today. At least now I'm a bit steadier than before. No more of that *menggelabah* nonsense. There's another class tomorrow, the worst thing is that I have a splitting headache since yesterday! Damn. We are officially going (I sincerely hope) to the tailor's to make the outfits. And yes, buy a birthday card for my dad. Might decide to go to Popular Book Store to get some stuff for college. On Sunday, I got the McDonald's new True Colours band. The purple on which read *SOAR*...was really hoping to get the blue one which read *Live Young* but that one was sold out it seems. *Sighs* Tough luck! But the band is so darn loose! It goes all the way up to my elbow! I'm not joking! It would look completely weird if I wear it, because it's so loose and it might just fall off for someone to conveniently pick up and keep it as a souvenir without me knowing it! Let's put it up for *tayangan umum* then! Muahahaha! Will try to add more to the collection.

Been having this stiff neck and backache since yesterday. It hurts like hell! Anyway I'm turning in early for tonight. Good night everyone. *Bluesy* out!

Friday, July 15, 2005

Sensitive...me?

I am getting rather confused at the moment. On Wednesday, I went out to the balcony to do my usual spying nonsense and since I wanted to feel the cool breeze because it was raining at that time. And I saw my ex-classmate who lives in the same housing area as I do was out on the balcony, drying her hair on the balcony(I think so, since she was drying her hair with a towel. Well, it looked like it!) . And then we saw each other. I just looked away and saw some cars and bikes passing by. By the time I looked back at her house, I saw the room light all off, and she was nowhere to be seen on the balcony, and the door that leads to the balcony was closed. Do you what this means?

It means I have 3 heads, 9 eyes, 4 ears, 5 lips, 7 noses, and teeth like Count Dracula. Yes, people. I AM an alien. Run! Or I will suck ze blood out of ze life you lead!

Okay, okay. Cut the crap already. It means that she thinks I'm going eat her alive or other nasty things from where I was standing. I don't know why, but she has this thing against me. I don't know what I've done wrong, but I just don't know. She will go round being everybody's apple-polisher, but MINE! I mean, I don't expect people to suck up to me, but if you're doing it to everyone, why not do it to me as well? She goes round the whole class for the past 2 years we were in the same class, being nice to everybody in class, but ME. That's why I had a hard time fitting into my class in Form Four after the reshuffling had been done. It seemed like she was the protagonist of the class, while I was left to be potrayed as the antagonist of the class(maybe I overanalyse too much!). She's the goody-two-shoes who doesn't take responsibility when it comes to lead a group(she'd surely be fired if she were to appear on an episode of The Apprentice). Even Sree notices it. And she was the head of the Computer Lab last year but knows nothing(nothing is too harsh...let's change it to a bit) of computers. I'm not even a computer lab prefect but instead I go round helping my classmates when it comes to computers(I'm no computer-freak like Sree...she's the main person you should see in case there's some doubts you need to clarify). She doesn't know how to use the darn thing and she gets elected as the president of the Computer Lab! I'm not trying to sound like I'm an angel or something, but she is, in other people's eyes, a girl who is helpful and hardworking. I admit she is, but she lacks the leadership quality and is only helpful to people she THINKS need her help. For example, the class monitor and her assistant, the head prefect and her assistant, other prefects, and a whole lot more people who, unfortunately, I can't seem to list them down. She's always trying to sound like she's on the same level as me. You know, like usually when you ask *What did you get for Add Maths?* and I'd go *I got 70, what did you get?*...the reply? *Same-lah*. But when I check the 'buku markah' the teachers usually have, she got only 40 marks(her name is directly above mine, so that's how I know)! And during the time the results came out, she told most of my friends that she got 4A's(I had 4A's as well). But later I find out, she got 2A's only. I'm not trying to belittle her by saying I'm smart, but just be true to yourself. You've got nothing to lose if you are truthful. And then she tries to show that she's *Ze greatest person in Sentul* by saying she's driving from here to Bangi(since she's going to UNITEN)and she'll send her mum to work. But my mum tells me that every morning her mum drives the car and she will sit in the backseat and lower herself a bit everytime she passes my house! To her (in my opinion), I am ze alien from ze country called TRANSYLVANIA. Muahaha...beware of ze fangs that will land on your neck! I know, you're asking *What if she reads this post?*. I don't care! If she does, good for her...at least she knows how I feel about her! Argh...ze alien is upset. Do not bug ze alien with 3 heads, 9 eyes, 4 ears, 5 lips, 7 noses and teeth like ze great Count Dracula.


My dad said that I'm very sensitive. And he goes on with a list of my ex-friends I have. And then he says *It's either you did something or they did something to you*. And then he goes on to say how racial intergration was visible during the time before the day we gained independence, and how that important aspect is no longer to be seen. I don't know. I have a good relationship with my non-Malay counterparts. In fact, I think I have more non-Malay friends than Malay friends. That's why my brother says that I speak very *weird* Malay. I don't speak Malay like how my brother does. I understand what he says but I don't speak it. Do you know, I hardly say the words *aku/kau*. I say *saya/awak*, whereas my brother says *aku/kau*. I'm ze weird one right? I know...I'm a lot different than my brother. That's what makes me incredibly unique.

I just love Joss Stone's new song *Spoiled*. She sounds great(as always)! Miera, in case you're reading this, I'm letting you know I'll try my level best to get The Killers and Keane's albums. Keeping my fingers crossed. I'm going to get my college shopping done in this month. I like to get things done a month before it actually happens.

To my dear Swarna, I've been waiting for you. Don't leave me waiting here...Was checking my room, then stumbled upon my old diary. Then I read the things my friends wrote in there. I still can't forget the *Jai Jakamma* Group we had in Form 3. Me, Swarna, Shamini R, Yoga, and T-Jay were the crazy members of that group. We used to fight with the *Kai Kupumma* Group led by Vishalni. And make fun of teachers especially Pn. Norlizan. Remember the time we asked Shamini R to keep quiet for two periods of BM lessons. And we felt so bad we asked her to talk in the 2nd period because even Pn. Norlizan was surprised to see Shamini so quiet (knowing very well that she laughs like the devil!)! But she went on till BM lessons were over. And then we had this *secret salute* thing. *Sighs*...those was the crazy days we had. Swarna, if you remember this, tag me!

Oh well, *Bluesy* has left ze building! Good night everyone!

P/S: I'd like to say *Au Revoir Patrick Vieira* who has left Arsenal to join Juventus. With his departure, I can only hope that Chelsea can use this problem to their advantage. The road is wide open for Chelsea to win all the much-coveted trophies around! *Evil laugh*...

Lilee has changed Miera's name to Mar...I am starting to substitute the word *the* to *ze* like I'm some foreigner from Europe. I HATE DURIANS! Why did my mum bring it back home? It stinks! Hate those damn durians! Rather eat mangoes and get a bloody sore throat than eat durians! I am now known as *Ze Mad One Named Julez*. Am rooting for the blonde guy named Daniel for this week's Malaysian Idol workshop. I was singing two songs by Kavana(remember Miera how much you adored him?)*Special Kind of Something* and *Funky Love*. And what do you know, Daniel sang the former! Hehehe...and by ze way, I have updated ze other blog...need the URL? It's
http://derangedbutterfly.blogspot.com/ ot you can just scroll on the left side of this blog and click on the [x] at the word Julian Speaks. And voila, you're there. Brickbats on that one necessarily needed! Muax and much love from me...*Ze Deranged One*: Julian.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

JM...the -SPECIAL ONE-

"Some are treated as devils and some are treated as angels. I don't think we are so ugly as to be treated like devils and I don't think that Mr. Wenger and Mr. David Dein and so on are so beautiful to be treated like angels."

"I went to Brazil for holiday. I didn't go to Brazil to chase players and speak with players behind clubs' backs," he added, with reference to reports that Sevilla were angered by Arsenal approaching their player Julio Baptista.

"But when I read the papers it is completely different. The devils and the angels."


Mourinho a.k.a *The Special One* at his best again. He speaks his mind and is brutally honest. That's what I like best about him. Wonder what he'll say about John Obi Mikel *being lured by Chelsea's riches*. Well, that's what the people at Manchester United think. It's a weird situation with Mikel. Manchester United claim they bought Mikel in April. But then Mikel says, he was forced into signing the contract when deep down in his heart, he wants to join Chelsea. And there's a big possibility he's coming to Chelsea.

There have been rumours that Chelsea want to sign Ronaldinho. Huh? I don't like it if Ronaldinho comes to Chelsea. You want to know why? I'll tell you why...

I remember it was the day before the 2nd leg of the 2nd round match of the UEFA Champions League between Chelsea and Barcelona. And Ronaldinho made this statement that really made me pissed! He said no English team will qualify through the quarter-finals of the Champions League since they're are not among the *cream of the crop* and *elites* like Real Madrid, Barcelona, and the likes. In the end, we (Chelsea) BEAT the elite Barcelona and went on to the semi-finals, where, unfortunately, we lost to the eventual champions, Liverpool, which is also an English team! And Chelsea are just absolutely crazy to bring Ronaldinho to the Bridge, and if he agrees to join Chelsea, he is the biggest hypocrite on Earth! Screw you, bloody Ronaldinho!

Dad called me and my mum *sakai* yesterday because the house is messy since we trash things wherever we like since the house is big. He says this is what *sakai's* normally do! Sheesh...I take the trouble to clean my mess, leaving my mum's stuff for her to clean up(in order to avoid further scoldings!) and I get called a *sakai*. Look at my brother's room and you will get the term *messy*. And he doesn't get called a *sakai*! Argh...why does he have things so easy? Well, come to think of it, it would be pointless to tell him anything since he's *beyond redemption/salvation*, according to my dad. The one thing I hate when I clean up my mess and put things where they should be, is that I can't seem to remember where I kept certain things! Short-term memory...I hate it! It takes me at least 2-3 days to find what I'm actually looking for! So frustrating...

Started reading today. Read the first 2 chapters of The Malay Dilemma. Since we bought the book 3 years ago, it hasn't been touched at all. So I'm trying get out of my *too lazy to read* situation by reading that since people I know have been telling me that once you start college, you have to be extremely hardworking to read. Called *someone* and wished that *someone* Happy Birthday...and weirdly enough that *someone* remembers the Chevrolet Optra story we shared a year ago...hahaha!

Been trying to post Frankie's picture but it won't come out right! Will try to post it up soon. Just bear with me, okay? Petr Cech is like a coconut tree...so darn thin and tall! Me? I'm just a little midget, what can I say?

Anyway, will update later on...hope to see you guys soon...*Bluesy* loves you guys! Much love, Rowena (Ann).

P/S: If Patrick Vieira leaves Arsenal for Juventus, who will replace him as captain? Miera and Helen reckon it's going to be a Frenchman...hmm, what say you?


Petr Cech(the best goalkeeper ever) and Chelsea's latest star, Asier Del Horno, unveil the new kit! Posted by Picasa


Chelsea's latest swoop...Asier Del Horno. Also in the pic is *The Special One*, Jose Mourinho. Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Dearest...

Somewhere in 2001/2002, I met Jeevan. When he saw me, he asked Miera *What is the Malay word for short?*. To which she replied *You can use either 'pendek' or 'rendah'*. Then he asked her *Which among the two you mentioned isn't very impolite?*...and then she said *'Rendah' is the less harsher one*. And then he walks up beside me, and says to me:

*You know what, you are kind of 'pendek', to me!*...feeling a little confused, I said *I'll take that as a compliment and now I'm thanking you. THANK YOU!!!*...I got so damn mad, I told Miera about what happened, and she strated laughing her head off! Felt like slapping her. But then she told to give him some time to loosen up, since he thinks that he was *plucked out of civilisation and thrown into the deep jungle*. I then decided, *What the hell, why not just give him some time to loosen up?*And eventually he did. Sure, we had the constant spats and all that jazz, but wa-hey! What do you know? We got on just fine! In the end, we became friends, then best friends, close friends, and then the unexpected. I realised I liked him more than a close friend. Liked him? I loved him...more than anyone could ever imagine. Then somehow, he felt the same also. But then, nothing lasts forever, I was told. We decided to remain as close friends, since I knew I could have his back whenever I needed him, and he could have my back as well whenever he needed me. I never looked back and said *What if we were still what we used to be?* in my life. I'm happy and content with what I have. So is Jay. As long as he's happy, I am happy. And vice versa. Don't look back in anger.

To my dearest unsophisticated yet incredibly smart close friend in the form of Jay, whenever you're down you know that you can lean on me. Happy birthday, you screwed-up nut. Love you all the same.

P/S: I will not attend your wedding if the dress code is MU jersey. I'd rather go there being the incredibly outstanding one by wearing a Chelsea jersey instead! And Stella is eager to wear gown, by the way. Don't dash her dreams of walking down the aisle in an MU jersey, instead of her dream white gown, okay?

Much love, Rowena @ *Bluesy* Ann!

Monday, July 11, 2005

Lala

Tomorrow(in exactly 13 minutes) is Jeevan's 18th birthday! And it's also *someone's* birthday and hell yeah, it's Gareth's birthday! Well then, to all three of them (in case they're reading this blog) I'd like to say: HAVE A HAPPY BIRTHDAY! MAY YOUR DAYS BE BLESSED WITH MUCH LOVE AND JOY THERE IS AROUND! LOVE YOU GUYS ALL THE SAME!

A lot of people are wondering why I like people born on the 12th of July. Considering the two out of the three people listed above are the people I really care about. Let me get this straight with you guys: It's just a coincidence! You don't expect me to interview every guy I like to see what's his date of birth, do you? I have better things to do!

Go to this site
http://www.gorillaz.com/ and click on the *Enter Kong Studio* button. Then go to one of the corridors (the ones on the right of the receptionist). In there, look for the shooting range door. Click on it and what are you waiting for? Start shooting! Good way to release stress, I say. But in a way, it has its downside. It's encourages violence because you're shooting people, cars and animals in that game!

Oh well...good night everyone. I'm sleepy. *Bluesy* Sherina out!

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Error...

Swarna dear, thanks for tagging! And by the way I forgot to mention that I already got the other two required colours. Light green and maroon. Thankfully the maroon one is a ready-made baju kurung and it fit me just perfectly, though I wore my skirt underneath! Forgot to say I saw Jay that Saturday, was rather surprised he didn't go back with Miera. Saw him with Jack. He told me: *Oii...pendek! You look taller now, but still pendek than me! The blue cloth would look lovely on you...how do I know? I just know it...*

At times, I hate him for his madnees. At times, I love him for his madness. That's Jay for you. Webber finished 11th and Massa finished 10th, Jay. And all the other three drivers fancied by Miera, Lilee and Lysa respectively ended up on the podium. And another thing that caught my interest would have been that Arsenal manager, Arsene Wenger. Someone was interviewing him or something like that. What's he doing there? Is he considering of changing from managing a football team to managing a Formula One team? Whatever it is, he's in the WRONG sport that day. He's LOST, I tell you! LOST!!! Connie Montoya is such a lovely lady, and their new son, Sebastian, he's so adorable. Though my dad said I am lot more adorable(when I was a baby) than Sebastian. Haha, that was what my dad said. Not me! *Blush*...


Had the meeting today (skipped the prayer service since my dad felt tired). Oh well, my mum is the SUPERVISOR of ushering the people in. And my dad, my brother and I are also involved in that area. So are my two other cousins, Nurul and Farhana. The job of ushering people in is a job that reminds me of being a public relations officer. And Miera rubbed it in by saying: *Don't forget, service with a smile!*. My brother says he feels lost since he's the only guy there(don't count my dad!) and the rest are girls. Your luck-lah...=P...And then during the discussion, they mentioned that they were giving out sweets to children during the bersanding ceremony. and then, this auntie said that we shouldn't teach them the wrong things. She said that sweets can spoil children's teeth, so they aren't giving anything to the children that come for the wedding. I did have a suggestion though, why not give cake instead? You know, banana cake, fruit cake, or the likes? But my mum didn't air out that my P.O.V. *Sighs* it's their child's wedding, not my mother's children's wedding. I mean, what can be the harm of kids eating sweets? Most kids eat sweets because their parents spoil them rotten. So if at all we give them sweets, they can't possibly blame of us for the damages that have been already done! At least, this is what my mum said, it will give my cousin who is a dentist more business if their teeth do get rotten. Oh well...what can I do but slap my forehead like usual? *Slaps forehead* One of my cousin's wife was rather shocked I turned the UIAM offer down and said that I should've taken up Economics and Management Sciences course. Counting down the days to August 26th!

Anyway, have to go now...will update a little later on. Much love from *Bluesy* Ann!

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Kain...

Hey there...Went out to buy the materials today...supposed to leave home at 10.30 a.m. but then Christina came over to do something. Then she told she's doing a lot of household chores because of her significant other. *Sighs*...when will I ever learn? Not in the coming years I suppose. *Sighs louder*...

So we finally left home at 11.50 a.m. (managed to watch Lilo and Stitch for a while though...hmm, Saturdays are never complete if I don't watch Stitch in action). Went of to Gaya Warisan. Saw this incredibly beautiful ash blue batik material. It was love at first sight. The material had something blue on it...so me, being the blue freak I am, we got that one. Then got the rest later. Ate kacang kuda for lunch (something rather new, don't you think?). Then went to Ampang Park. Bought a present for dad, since his birthday is coming soon. All there is left is the card.

My dad made a statement about my brother (to my brother, in case you're reading this: Please rectify what has been done). He said that *We have a son at home who couldn't be bothered. When it comes to family, he says it's boring and he doesn't want to come. When he's with his friends, he goes all out for them. When he became the best man for his friend's wedding, he didn't hesitate to make new outfits. Look at that Suja. She makes less than what he earns a month, and she got her mother an ASTRO satellite dish for her birthday. Also bought her mother a saree for Deepavali. Got her first pay also took her parents out for dinner. Our children don't realise that we go all out for them for their needs, that we even put aside our personal needs at times!*.

Ouch...that hurt. It made me feel like I haven't done much at all. It's my job to get the birthday/other occasions presents and card in order. Not my brother, he only gets the privilege to sign the card. I'm the one who buys everything (I can't count my brithday presents, can I?) for everyone, with that little income I get for doing my brother's chores (more of his plate-washer really). Me...and do people see that part of me? NO! I even use up the money I get, that I end up having no money to buy a few CDs I've setting my sights on (Miera, this would answer your question on why I haven't bought Jamie Cullum and the other albums you have constantly asked me to buy!). I'm not in a good mood really. Everytime I want to spend a bit of money on myself, people just think I throwing money like I'm some big time Datuk's daughter or something. It's not like I'm simply spending money on things that I won't need. I need music. Music is my life, and my life is music. And furthermore, it's for me. That's why I'm so desperate for people to buy me CDs. Instead, people buy me clothes and other stuff but CDs! *Sighs* desperate daughter, you think?

Anyway, need to go do something else. See you people around soon! *Bluesy* out!

P/S: Miera, did you see Frank's new haircut? Argh...he's nearly *botak*! Never mind, his hair will grow, and I'll still love him, regardless of his haircut or his case of sleeping soundly! Hehe =P!

Friday, July 08, 2005

Hey...

Was supposed to go out and buy the materials today, but unfortunately mum felt rather tired. So we are going tomorrow. Eliza is pretty traumatised from what I gathered just now. Poor girl...Eliza, if you are reading this, take this as a blessing in disguise. I know I can't really relate my *How I narrowly missed being hit by the tsunami waves since I was supposed to go on holiday to Sri Lanka* experience with this current attack since she was at the scene of the crime. Jay's 18th birthday plans have been put on hold (except for the F1 race I think). I don't think it's right to celebrate while others are mourning the carnage and loss of their loved ones.

It's sad to see those terrorists who did the bombings claim to be doing it in the name of Islam, but it's actually not. Islam tells us not to fight outside a war, and during war (should it happen)we must not harm women, the elderly, young children, and also people seeking refuge in a place of worship (in a Muslim's case, it would be the mosque). But I really don't know whether this was to remind Britain and the United States to order their troops to retreat from Iraq or Afghanistan. All in, I have to agree with what Tony Blair said: *It's barbaric*. This is a repeat of 11.09.2001 and 11.03.2004 in New York and Madrid respectively.

My pc went mad earlier on. Couldn't get through certain sites. Thankfully it's okay now. And the terrible thing is my radio's CD player isn't functioning as it should be. Since my dad got the electrician to do something in the room, the potpourri vase broke into pieces and he wanted to sweep it, he just pushed the chair forgetting that that's where I keep my radio. How is it that he didn't see my radio. It's so darn visible from the door as you enter the room! And my CD player isn't working...and I have to wait till the electrician comes next week! *Sighs*...

Went out for dinner just now. There were some oranges hanging in the silver basket. And my mum asked us *That round thing in the last basket...what is it? Is it eggs or onions?* And she was wearing her glasses at that time! And then my father asked my brother whether he wanted vegetable tomyam or not. And he said *No, this is not tomyam. This is mee hoon* referring to his dinner. Sad to say, everyone in this household is getting deaf by the minute. No thanks to my mum!

Anyway have to run now. More updates tomorrow. See you all soon. Bless and much love...Rowena a.k.a de Lady *Bluesy*.

P/S: Getting more and more desperate to change my blog layout. Everyone has changed their's. Farah's one is nice (Farah, if you're reading this, HELLO!). But I really liked her cat layout. Wait for the new skin to come. I'll get it done once I'm free. Hehe...love you guys all the same!

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Bless...

Got a hold of Miera since I wanted to know whether her family members are okay. She said Lilee's brother Daniel is seriously injured (had some cuts on his head and his body...bleeding head to toe from what I heard), and Helen's boyfriend Keevan is also injured and he was covered in soot, blood, bruises and cuts. Poor fella. Helen was sobbing continuously, saying she wanted to go back and see Keevan. Miera told me she's going back tonight, since her youngest sister(Eliza/Heng Yan/Dayannie) is currently traumatised, since she was in the second train and she could see some light near the first train and she could feel some earthquake. For the past five years I've seen/heard of Heng Yan, this is my first time hearing she is traumatised. Poor girl...she went out shopping with Jenny and Stella. And Stella saw Keevan before he boarded the first train! They were talking and all. And Heng Yan was pissed with Jenny for taking the 2nd train! And Heng Yan is so upset because she thinks that if they had taken the 1st train, they would have died! Miera said she had to go see Daniel anyway since he is part of family (though he hurt her badly during their 4 year relationship). And she's telling me her dad was clueless when she called him to find out if they were alright. Weird...since he didn't even go to work after much partying over London's successful bid to host the 2012 Olympic Summer Games. Dawson was in Dublin in his wife, and Davinn was somewhere in Barcelona. Was hoping I could meet her tomorrow so that I could plan what presents to buy for a few people, but it wasn't meant to be. She has decided to go back early. Hope everyone's alright, dear!

Watched *Desperate Housewives* on Tuesday and I think it's wicked! And something happened today while we were out grocery shopping at Ong Tai Kim. Please...if ever you pass by Ong Tai Kim Sentul and intend to buy your groceries here, DON'T. Just take my word for it. I suggest somewhere less smelly and sickening than Ong Tai Kim. Anyway back to the original story. Met someone who is related to a person I know that I dislike. This someone greeted my dad and so did my dad. I told my dad that if the person related to the someone who greeted my dad DID greet my dad, I'd probably slap that person. And my dad asks me why. I said *I'm not talking to that person, and neither is that person talking to me. So why must that person talk to you? Let's leave it at that!*. And speaking of which, why did that someone come here (OTK) to do their grocery shopping instead of the supermarket near their residence? And I asked my dad whether the other supermarket closed down or what, and he asks me back *Why you ask? Because you saw that someone here?* and since I didn't want to get some unnecessary scolding, I said no. And we went on an ice-cream hunting spree. Bought a Pepsi bottle with a picture of David Beckham (trust me, I didn't want to, I'd rather buy a bottle with Frank Lampard's face on it, but my mum asked me to buy it!). And I just hope no one in my house drinks it and dispose the bottle. Then on the way back, I saw that someone with that person (why do I make such simple things SO complicated?) walking somewhere. *Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn!* is all I can utter at the moment.

I'm just thankful Miera's fine (though I know someone who hates her would rather see her dead)...I just hope all the Chelsea players and officials are alright. Haven't been talking to Jay in the right state of mind lately. Don't really know the reason why. Thank God they're alright! Miera, if you manage to read this before you get on the plane, tell Heng Yan that I said that she shouldn't worry and always look on the bright side of life (like what she always tells me!). Have faith. Love you guys all the same!

Anyway, wrote a poem yesterday at 1 in the morning. A rare case of insomnia. Will try and update the other blog as well. When I have the time anyway...have to retire for the night. Tomorrow I'll be going out...SHOPPING. For the wedding. *Sighs* more expenditures. *Bluesy* signing out!

-Spread love, not hatred-

Updates...

Hello again! Had lengthy conversations with Sree and Miera yesterday. *Sighs* how I miss them both...missing my ardent blog visitor Swarna as well, load MSN and Yahoo! Messenger already! Miera's here till Saturday. Came back to KL with Helen to watch Cheer 2005. What to do? Helen's a cheerleader, so to her, this is THE event. *Sighs*...as least it keeps her quiet and happy at the same time.

We went on talking bout the possibilities of Steven Gerrard leaving Anfield. Now he wants to stay! Is this a repetition of what happened last year? Last year, Chelsea wanted him, and he wanted to leave Anfield, but decided to stay there since he feared the numerous amount of death threats he and his family members received. Now when he wants out and Chelsea want him(again!), he decides that he can't leave the club he loves dearly? He wanted to leave Liverpool when earlier he said *How can I leave after a night like this?* after winning the UEFA Champions League trophy? That sounds rather unloyal to me, Steven...Now Chelsea have announced that they will NEVER bid for Gerrard again. Oh well, we have the best (in my humble opinion) bunch of midfielders in the squad. One of them would be Frank Lampard. Steven Gerrard, if you're reading (highly unlikely to happen) this, please make up your mind and stop making rather puzzling U-turns. If you want to leave, go ahead. But don't change your mind once you have already made it up! Jenny's pretty fed up with him as well. As she's constantly banging her head on the wall everytime people question her bout Gerrard's loyalty. *Sighs*...good to know she'll continue loving Liverpool, but loving Gerrard?

*Hard for me to love him already...why can't he just make up his mind up already, instead of making his worshippers/fans wonder where's he moving to? I won't cry like how I sobbed when Owen left if he leaves. Let him go where the HELL he wants to go!* was the reply I got. Oh well, even if he DID end up in Chelsea, I don't think I'd like it, since we have better midfielders than him (once again, in my humble opinion). But that's up to Roman and Jose to decide who they want. Now they want David Trezeguet after bids for Adriano and Andriy Shevchenko (for God's sake, can those irritating newscasters pronounce the surname right? It's Shevchenko, not Shekevenko!) failed miserably. Sold Kezman to Atletico Madrid (Goodbye mate! Hope you have a great season there!). Hope they get a striker soon. But I don't think it's really necessary anyway. Their top scorer last season wasn't even a striker, but in fact a midfielder who goes by the name of Frank Lampard. What can I do but promote Frank Lampard the sound sleeper? Let's not even go there.

Managed to lock 100 Acre Wood in *Kingdom Hearts* on Monday. Haven't played it since then. On Tuesday, heard the song that always leaves a smile on my face and reminds me of Miera...*Rushes* by Darius. You know I love this song and you, my dear. Bless you and take care.

Heard that London got to host the 2012 Olympics over the much-fancied Paris. Kudos to London then (though I really hated that comment made by David Beckham bout why the Olympics should be held in London). But now there are reports saying that London's Underground tunnel and buses in London town have been bombed. Hope everyone there okay and this not happen due to jealousy or something equivalent to it. Hope Miera's entire extended family are alright! And this is happening a day after London won the bid to host the 2012 Olympics. Hope they still get to host it. Let's pray for those who have been injured in the blasts.

*One minute silence*

Miera, Helen, Jermaine, and Jay...since you all are here, I just hope and pray that your family including the extended family and also our friends back in London are alright as well. You know I can't bear to lose you all. You all mean the whole world to me. *Sniff*

Much love, spread love and not hatred...Ann/*Bluesy*.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Talks...

Excerpts of today's conversation with Miera and Jay...

Miera: Hello, dah makan ke?
Me : Yeah, you know I can't live in this house without eating all 3 meals. Sigh...They think I'm some nutrition-deprived child or what?
Miera: It's not nice to say things like that, you know? Think about the people in Africa who have no food and are constantly suffering from starvation or malnutrition. Have you got no sympathy for them?
Me : Don't you use my words against me. I'll slap you. Sigh..you back here, ah?
Miera: Yeah, have to do some shopping for Jeevan, maklumlah, in another 7 days the young man is gonna turn 18.
Me : Huh? You came all the way to shop for Jay's stuff here? What, no more shopping complexes in London is it?
Miera: Not like that-lah, mangkuk! So long never drop by so decided to visit-lah!
Me : Your beloved Becks said something about giving a chance for children to see the Olympics in their own town. If he thinks like that, why not have the Olympics all around the world, considering children want to see the Olympics? Give the five countries who are bidding to be the host of the 2012 Olympics and the rest of the world to host it? What, does he think children in London are special bunch of people or what?

Miera: Don't you dare insult my Becks! I'll slap you! I'm very special you know? Children in London are a damn special bunch you know!
Me : Yeah, right! How long will you be here?
Miera: Saturday kena balik already. Classes starting on Monday. I'll be studying soon. Sigh...

Me : You and Jay staying in Jack's house is it?
Miera: Yeah...You wanna talk to Jeevan?
Me : No harm in talking to him, anyway. Hey Jay!
Jay : Hello my dear! How's life?

Me : Normal yet frantic as ever. So someone's gonna be 18 soon...
Jay :Yes! 18...live and kicking! Now I'm legal to drink some booze! Go partying till the break of dawn...
Me : The only thing you ever look forward to being 18 is booze and partying. Nothing else?
Jay : Oh yeah, more presents! And this week, I'm gonna catch the F1 race in the Silverstone GP, thanks to Uncle Tony! Can see Webber!
Me : Speaking of Webber, my backside has been itching like crazy!
Jay : That's the curse...the curse of you insulting Mark Webber having burns in his backside.
Me : I didn't mean it! It was just for a laugh you know.
Jay : Serves you right!
Me : Whatever-la you! How's the spouse?
Jay : I'm not married yet! But if you mean Stella, she's doing fine!
Me : Anyway, can I speak to Miera please?
Jay : No problem, for you my dear, I can do anything!
Me : Shut up! Hello, what's Heng Yan doing?
Miera: Everytime you send me messages always ask what Heng Yan's doing? Don't you have something better to ask?
Me : Like what? Is Jermaine with you?
Miera: That works for me. Yes, he's here. And Heng Yan is back in London...might be going to India also. Summer hols now...so might be going to Bali or Thailand also.
Me : Don't go to Thailand and Bali! Not safe...it's either some killing spree going on or earthquake happening! Save them-la..why not got Aussie?
Miera: You go there-lah and kidnap kangaroos. Heard you wanted to kidnap lemurs from Madagascar?
Me : Hehe...yeah. I want to kidnap them and raise them on my own. I nak kidnap Yan boleh tak?
Miera: Take her-la...hehe! I saw MI advertisements...the roti man and the susu fella so funny!
Me : You saw already? Damn funny right I told you! What bout the mango?
Miera: Mango one damn funny la. But I like the susu one. Anyway...what do you think if the mango seller used Light My Fire as the tune...it would have gone something like this: *C'mon baby buy my mango*
Me : You must be crazy! Nothing better to think already-la? I like Feel Good Inc. by the way.
Miera: Seen the vid?
Me : You bet! Murdoc got nice ass la...the song is great! Need to go buy the album...
Miera: How many albums I asked you to buy and you have actually bought in the past 1 year?
Me : Err...1 I think. Last time got not enough cash la. Now got extra income so can-la.
Miera: How you got extra income? Oh...brother's official plate-washer huh?
Me : Hehe...yeah. Did you hear bout Madrid wanted to trade Owen and Solari and 20 million pounds for Frank Lampard? Wow...didn't realise he such a valuable guy!
Miera: Now they want Terry and Ferdinand. Chelsea turning to Trezeguet now. Cannot get Shevchenko and Adriano, try Trezeguet-la.
Me : Chelsea got money to spend. Wish we had money to throw around.
Miera: Throw around sounds very harsh. Spend sounds better.
Me : This week, kena buy the kain for the wedding outfits. Peliklah pakai the baju like uniform je.
Miera: La...kau kahwin pun cam tu karang. All blue...I bet you!
Me : Melalut je la kau ni. Oh yeah, London official host for Olympic's 2012!
Miera: Yay...see, I told you that children from London are special.
Me : By the time 2012 arrives, you'll be 25 and you'd probably have kids. So you're no longer a child!
Miera: Oh well, at least my children can see the Olympics. My children are so privileged!
Me : By the way, kalau I buat Masters kat sana, boleh tengok sekali. Kalaulah..
Miera: Anyhow, gotta run...see you on Friday I suppose?
Me : Yeah...anyway, you take care. Send my regards to the family and Jay as well.
Miera: Will do. Bye!
Me : Bye...