I LOVE YOU...

I have no one to shower all my love to. I'm not sad...in fact I'm glad I don't have to go through this ordeal of having a boyfriend. I'm not ready for commitment. I haven't learnt to love myself yet, how do expect me to love someone else? I'm afraid of saying the words I LOVE YOU to someone only to find that I will never end up with them eventually. I'm not ready. I'm too young for love, I don't think I am ready to commit myself to a relationship. I only celebrate Valentine's [though it's not allowed in my religion] with my friends and family. No special certain significant someone in my life. Being boyfriendless doesn't make me any less human than I already am.

Maybe when I'm ready to fall in love again, maybe that's when I'll say I'm happy being in love. That is, if I find the right one.

Even if I do, he has to get my friends' stamp of approval. I can't bear to lose a great friend for a guy again! Thank God, now things between us is patched up. Time heals all wound.

I learnt an important thing this week. I learnt how to really forgive someone and mean it. Okay, a few times when people apologise to me, I don't really forgive them when I say I do. It's because they don't deserve it. Like the time when someone stole my jewelleries only to say her friend was generous enough to give them to her. I know my stuff better than anyone else in the world. So, obviously you can't cheat and lie to me about my stuff. And another time, this same someone lost one of my hardly-used shirt and told it in my face very calmly, sans the guilt-ridden facial expressions. Whatever it is, I know how to genuinely forgive someone now. I know who deserves my forgiveness and who doesn't. I've changed.

No worries...

Anyway, this a very nice song from Lee Ryan, it's called *Guardian Angel*. Enjoy!

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In your eyes I see you've been broken
And you shadow it hides from the sun
As a picture with words left unspoken
Are you wondering who you are

Do you ever think there's someone out
There looking over you
Watching everything you do
Looking after you

Would you believe that I could be your guardian angel
Do you believe that this is true
If you say yes I'll fall and I will be able
To look at anyone so true I love you

Your thoughts get lost in the ocean
And your prides as strong as the sea
Your heart is blocked by a raincloud
Only thunder and rain can be seen

Do you ever think there's someone out
There looking over you
Watching everything you do
Looking after you

Would you believe that I could be your guardian angel
Do you believe that this is true
If you say yes I'll fall and I will be able
To look at anyone so true I love you

Say the words and I will be there
Hold my hand cause I am scared
You believe the world can be strange
Please take away my pain

Would you believe that I could be your guardian angel
Do you believe that this is true
If you say yes I'll fall and I will be able
To look at anyone so true I love you, you, you, you
Do you believe that this is true
If you say yes I'll fall and I will be able
To look at anyone so true I love you

***

Sometimes I wished I had a guardian angel...to give me guidance to the right path. Sigh...I'll never know when I will ever say those 3 deadly words: I LOVE YOU. When I do, you guys will be the first to know.

I want to add some pictures. From yesterday's surprise birthday party for Materlline.

-Ben, Priya, Adrian, Sylvien, me, Chithaa, Jo Weng, Jon and the birthday girl, Materlline!-

-A bit of an annoying poser, isn't she? Hehe...need to cut my hair!-

-Don't know what happened here...all I know is that Jo Weng was cutting the cake and Materlline was giving him the plates. Not too sure what I was doing there anyway!-

-Jon, Chithaa, Materlline, Adrian, Priya, Sylvien, Jo, and me. Pic was a bit dark since it was raining and all. We are professional cam-whores, aren't we? If you look hard enough you can see the blue version of Frank Lampard's watch [his is red]! See carefully, if not see the earlier pics!-

Credit goes to Roya for all the pics.

A bit too annoyed to talk at the moment. Will try to get more pics. If I can, that is. Tomorrow's class is at 11 AM! Yay, more time to sleep!

*Bluesy* out!