Where have you gone?
Where has that happy me gone to?
Oh, that's right. It died fighting the whole world.
It will only be resurrected on August 13th.
I hate being a fake. It's because I can't. My voice sounds fake, but the actions definitely don't portray anything related to the word 'fake'.
So what do I usually do? Act like how a normal sane person would do: pretend to have something eat up your insides.
~If only I don't bend and break, I'll meet you on the other side, I'll meet you in the light,
If only I don't I don't suffocate, I'll meet you in the morning when you wake...~
Tired of the same shit everyday. We might as well be strangers.
~Do you realise that it's been one year since I've been single? Wow. That's fast. I'm happy again. =) ~
Everybody's changing. Except me. Should I change? From a manic-depressive and almost suicidal child to a more happy and sanity-intact teen?
You tell me.
posted by Rowena Julez at
9:39 pm
5 Comments:
Hey you. Why do you always put yourself in situations like this?
Let go. Was hoping for that best kiss pics...that would've been entertaining.
We all have our ups and downs. True, that something is always there to put you down after you feel happy. But the thing is, it's just a matter of how you handle it, that way you know how to be happy.
You do sound suicidal sometimes, but you admit that suicide is for cowards. And I, for a fact know that you're not one. You just say things like that at the spur of the moment. Because you're sad, you tend to say things like that.
It's not like you want to kill yourself or anything like that. You were just sad. It happens to me too, especially after my aunt passed away. I was too sad to even go out of the house. You remember that dark moment of my life, right?
Never let anything hold you back.
You have changed. You have grown up to be strong. Remember how you were when you first broke up with 'he who shall not be named'? You were scared and you continued on.
The second [and last!] time you broke up with him, you were adamant about it, and you didn't have second thoughts about it again. You did what you thought was right.
Look where it brought you now. You're a lot happier than when you were with him! I can safely bet that I have never seen you this happy when you were with him!
One year? Wah...crank up that Natasha Bedingfield song!
Stay happy. I heart you.
*CTea*
Wow. May, that's a pretty long comment.
May has pretty much said everything that needs to be said.
You won't bend and break, so I'll meet you on the other side and in the light.
You won't suffocate, so I'll meet you in the morning when you wake.
=p
You've grown a lot stronger. You're the only one I know who's terror enough to eat chocolates and spicy stuff even when they have sore throat or cough.
That includes the lemon chicken and red wine by the way.
Don't give up, let go of people who bring you down.
You should be a Liverpool fan. Seriously!
You could've gotten yourself hitched by a Merseysider.
Come to Anfield and see Crouchy!
Love ya loads!
*No-Elle-Lysa*
CTea - My God! Long comment! I just feel sad. I feel like I've gone through more sadness than happiness this year.
But it's funny. I do feel a lot happier now than when I was with Mr. 'I can't get her hint to leave her alone'.
You remember! No wonder you're my 15 years! Pump it louder!
Love you, bitch!
Lysa - She beat you to it. Don't feel sad.
You had to bring up about the wine issue right?
*slaps*
Liverpool fan? Haha...you sound like my friend! :|
Merseysiders are an arrogant lot! Especially you!
Before I meet Crouchy in Anfield, I'll meet Frankie in Stamford Bridge and Aaron Lennon in White Hart Lane.
LOL...31st? Sure sure...I'm free for 2 months anyway.
One month and 4 days more til a certain you-know-who turns 19...
Hugs!
-ChocolateSundae-
hey maddy twin.telling you to cheer up is just like asking you to be fake innit? so..yeah..ok...it's ok to feel depressed and all downy-face once in a while.(you're sick for goodness sake, you're forgiven!)
put on some nice music...snuggle up to your pillows and you'll feel better. dance if you have to~
Aimee - I feel a lot better already.
Been listening to Keane since yesterday. I have to say it helps. =)
Maybe if I listen to MCR, I won't feel bad so often!
Sorry to sound all so depressed and suicidal, it's just that I'm tired of reruns that's going on in my life. So sick of it recurring time and time again.
It never seems to leave me alone.
*Your maddy twin*
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