Better than that?

*I shall not change the title or the contents of this post. This is the final touch, and will not be corrected whatsoever*

I thought I knew you
Better than I knew myself girl,
I thought I found you
Hiding in the strength that's in your eyes,
But now I see you
Burning all the bridges in your world,
Now I feel you
Sinking in the quicksand of your lies

Can't you see that you're slipping away?
Can't you hear what I'm trying to say? (You're better than that...)

[CHORUS]
Better than that
Stronger than that (You're worth much more)
You're better than that
And you can turn back
(What's tried is torn)
Better than that
Stronger than that
(You're worth much more)
I'm telling you it's killing you
It's drowning you, it's spilling you over (What's tried is torn)

I thought you knew how
To chase away the demons of blind trust,
I thought you knew now
It's all about temptation
Changed by choice,
But girl you're crazy
You're hanging onto reasons
Turned to rust,
You're eyes are hazy,
You've gone and lost the velvet
In your voice

Can't you see that you're slipping away?
Can't you hear what I'm trying to say? (You're better than that...)

[CHORUS]

I told you once,
I told you twice,
I told you baby,
Now there's nothing more to say
I'm missing the girl I knew,
While kissing the broken you,
But it's not up to me...

So don't look back,
Face up to the facts,
And you can turn back
You're better than that.

Better than that, stronger than that,
Wiser than that, bigger than that
You're better than the devil in you
Telling you how, pulling you down, spilling you out
But it's up to you...

I thought I knew you, better than I knew myself girl...
You're better than that,
You're worth much more,
I'm telling you, it's killing you,
It's drowning you, it's spilling you over,
What's tried is torn...

-Darius-
-Better Than That-

This song is the one song that Mar will tell me to listen to when I feel down and less of my football-crazy self. Yesterday, when I said that I didn't think I'd get such good results, she just told me:
*Julez, you knucklehead! How many times have I told you that you're better than that? You're one heck of a smart girl. The more you say you're not smart, intelligent and the likes...the more I feel like strangling you! We're different people with different perspectives on life. You should be proud of who you turned out to be, instead of saying you don't deserve anything you get. You shouldn't be sad if people say you're not as brilliant as so-and-so's kids. Their level of intelligence and yours are two different levels altogether! You proved those who think you weren't going to make it wrong! Your parents, for example. They said you weren't giving your studies your full, undivided attention, instead you paid attention on Chelsea, Frank Lampard, and your other interests. At the end of the day, you showed them that your studies weren't disrupted by your interests. I know you, better than I know my own self. You're better than that. Even my ex, Darius says so too. Go listen to that song. You know it'll do you some good. You know it will...*

Am I truly better than that? I always think that others are better than me. I just feel so timid and insignificant when I'm around them, those better than me. Those deemed flawless, perfect, and almighty. But then again, those deemed perfect, flawless, and almighty are the ones really, in reality, the ones with all the imperfections and flaws. No one is perfect. You may be good in something, but not in good in another, that doesn't mean you're not all that! Not everyone has to be good in everything. It's only a matter of time you discover what your true colours and talent are.

Thanks, you idiot! For being my NO.1 CHEERLEADER! God knows what I'd do without you. Thanks for being my my best friend of 15 years. More importantly, thanks for making me a Chelsea fan! I didn't have a team to support in the EPL. Was more a neutral fan. Then I decided to be a Chelsea fan, thanks to her. Love you all the same, sugar!

And how dare you say Darius is your ex? You don't even know him! Wait till I tell Charlie Chickadee! Haha...

I shall post up my NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS list tomorrow.

*Bluesy* out!