It won't hurt anymore...

I don't care what you call me, cos it won't hurt anymore...

I've never ever felt like this in my entire life. The fact that I am crying over my studies is NOT normal.

Screw the presentation. What does it feel like when a person whom you consider to be as your friend BETRAYS you and ACCUSES you for something that was entirely her fault?

I have never felt this betrayed in my life. I feel like I've been stabbed from the back repeatedly and the knife is left there to drain out all the blood I have.

Don't use tears to disguise your ugly heart. It never works on me.

I'm sorry we EVER got to know a wicked person like YOU.

I've had people backstabbing me before this. But this is the worst sense of backstabbing I've ever been in. It hurts to see you build up a relationship with someone, only for them to slice you up and eat your insides including your heart.

What else can you throw at me I haven't heard before?
EVERYTHING.


I hate it when I cry in front of anyone. Makes me look inferior. But it shows I'm all human and not a robot.

I really hate it when I cry in front of my parents. I just hate pouring out my problems to them, when they even have bigger conflicts to resolve.

To any of my friends that I've hurt so badly without me knowing it, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I hope for whatever reason, you will find forgiveness within yourself to forgive me.

To the friend who just lost my friendship, I hope you will be racked with guilt for your whole life. You can go fuck a tree if you like. You will never get back whatever you lost. NEVER.

To the other friend who cried with me today, I hope you won't hurt me, because I will never hurt you. You were my first friend in college. So you would know me better than anyone now. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you. I never meant to do it.

To the rest of the world, I am only human. Don't hate me for what I lack. Take me as I am.

I don't think I've cried so much for these two things. Studies and friendship. Heck, when I broke up with my ex, I cried for one hour before I decided to get off the relationship.

She and gayboy can have a relationship. They would be such a match-made-in-heaven. You fucking liars need to die!

Suddenly Elen Rives doesn't look so horrible compared to these two [Aimee, she is horrible, but today she doesn't seem to be THAT horrible, because these two liars have somehow overshadowed her ugliness and big boobs and big lips!].

Just needed to rant. I always sound depressed, right?

I think instead of *The OBSESSED ONE...Speaks*, this blog should now be known as *The DEPRESSED ONE...Speaks*.

***I should be alright by tomorrow. This incident just sliced my heart into size of a chocolate brownie from Secret Recipe. I mean it...I'm really sorry if I sound so suicidal. It's just that this pain is just too real, there's so much that time cannot erase***

Let the rain wash the pain away...it won't hurt anymore.

*Bluesy* out!