Saturday, February 26, 2005

My new concoction...

People try to bring me down,
And make me look like a clown,
Seems like everyone around me,
Is trying to plot, ponder, and pray for my downfall,
They claim they enjoy doing it, you see,
The adrenaline rush they get,
Is the same as the way the water runs through the waterfall,
Sometimes I wonder,
Of all people, why me?
Why do they love to see me suffer?
Sometimes I say,
Let's leave things be,
Things will be okay,
It's just God's way of testing your trust,
Now, I've realised that I've grown stronger,
And that in life, criticisms and brickbats are a must,
No matter how hard they try to ruin my life,
Or try to control the strings of my puppet show,
Or even try to destroy bonds between me and my loved ones through an emotional strife,
I'll prove those fools wrong,
I may get battered and bruised along the way,
But I'll never be unbeatened,
For once, I know my face will glow,
Wtih pride I shall sing my victory song,
This victory shall be sweetened,
Now that I know things are going my way,
I'll have the last say,
Before, I lost all my senses,
Now, I'm jumping over fences,
They said I won't succeed,
That I was incomplete,
They forgot one thing,
I may be an angel with a broken wing,
That will not deter me from flying once more,
I may not be perfect, but I don't have to be,
I'm just me, the same old me,
I know that if God closes a door,
Somewhere He'll open a window,
Where I can go,
And prove others that doubt my abilities before,
That they were too stupid to doubt me,
A light that goes through a prism,
Distributes seven other lights,
I'm the white light that shines brightly,
Slowly but surely,
I influence others around me to change,
I go out of my normal range,
To claim my rights,
These are my parting words,
That I created while throwing together some chords,
Nobody outsmarts this young lady,
And gets in the way of what she longs for...
RECOGNITION, RESPECT & REALISM!

Written by a sleepy, blurry, hungry, pyschotic and crazy...ME!

I wrote this somewhere 12.30 a.m. this morning and finished it about 2.15 a.m.!

It's amazing what BOREDOM, MADNESS, PSYCHOTICNESS, HUNGER & WILL YOUNG can do to you...

Inspired to write this ever since my faith in Allah S.W.T. has been tried and tested in many forms...used to think suicide was the solution, now I realised that is totally stupid and it's an act of a coward. I'm certainly not one. I'm stronger. Thanks a lot to Will Young who has made me realise that I'm a cut above the rest of them who think I'm weak.

~You are stronger...more than you think you are...keep the faith and spread the love...~

Toodles for now...

Saturday, February 19, 2005

It's amazing what wonders coffee can do for you...

Hello everyone...basically I'm sick and dead tired of eating outside food! This is actually coming out of the mouth of a person who was actually furious with the fact that she had to eat home-cooked food everyday! I'm pretty sure you all know who I'm talking about *winks*! Miera, for goodness sake, stop laughing! It's true...for the past one week(except Tuesday) I ate outside...burgers, kuay teow, chicken rice(on Thursday and Friday, lunch on both days!) and now sandwiches and fried mee hoon...I'm tired...need to fast for a few days to get rid of the fat...still 49kg, but need to work it a little bit...I want to be 45kg...just perfect! In and out of the house...went to the hospital for the past three days...so tired...I have blisters on my toes...I'm dead tired...just to get Mak Ngah out of the hospital took us 6 hours! Six hours??? While waiting, we couldn't go out and eat...so Rizal and I went to the cafeteria and shared a plate of fried mee hoon and a glass of iced milo. At about three, I told Ma I needed my fix of coffee, if not I would go mad...so she followed me down and we went to Delifrance and bought Iced Cafe' Mocha for me and Rizal. After drinking it, Rizal started dancing while singing to Jamelia's "Superstar"...I mean in the ward! My mum said that he was one of the patients from the psychiatric ward that escaped. Then both of us went down to buy some snacks and I had to follow him out to the bus stop so that he could smoke. On the ground floor, he was dancing and I told him that the people here will think you escaped from the psychiatric ward. Then we saw a guard on the phone and then I said to him that they are informing the psychiatric ward that one of their patients has escaped. We laughed. Then we bought a Tuna Sandwich for Ma at Delifrance. I was famished so I took a bit while mum was eating. At about 5.30 p.m. we were finally going to leave the hospital. I could have gone mad. Then we sent her home. We left there about 7.30 p.m. and went to McDonald's for take-away. Then, came home at about 8.15p.m.. Now I'm here writing my blog. Yesterday I went for Pn. Cheong's farewell...thanks to my dad. Everyone was staring at me as though I was some alien or something of that sort. It was funny though...I got to see Pn. Maznah cry (you would be surprised too if you knew how Pn. Maznah is...she always scolds us and then will give us a lecture on something and then try to incorporate something which has absolutely no relation to what she was talking earlier!)...I was actually laughing when she was giving her speech (I know it was rude but I couldn't help it! It was something unusual for me!)...then again it was sad to see a priceless gem like Pn. Cheong leave our school. She has done a lot for our school...from upgrading the canteen to the dramatic upgrade of our school toilets (if you were in my school somewhere 2000, 2001 and 2002, our toilets were so dirty and we had to wash them...with the new toilets around, the toilet washing sessions were abolished!)...from the achievement of the hockey and netball team to the achievement of the drama team( damn proud of these girls!). I have to say she was amazing in making our school the way it truly is now. Thank you, Pn. Cheong, for your endless contributions for the school. All your time, affection and energy showered on to the school will definitely not go to waste. Thank you for making my 4 years of schooling life a very enjoyable one. Debra gave me a gift. Yesterday was indeed a day not to be forgotten(for some specific reasons that I do not wish to say out loud!). Miera, please STOP LAUGHING! I know that you know what I know and now I know what you know and now we know what we both do know...*blearh* damn that bloody tongue twister...and to think I actually remembered it for your sake, Miera. You should be lucky I do! Anyway, I think I'm too tired to actually go on rambling on what happened or is happening now...so I think I will have to continue some other time...tomorrow.

So take care, paciba and buenos noches...muax!

Rowena @ Sylvie of the Sylvie, Stella and Sharon Pte. Ltd.

Muax again...*gives a flying kiss*

Grant me the senility to forget the people I never liked anyway, the good
fortune to run into the ones I do, and the eyesight to tell the difference.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Madness begins(once more)...

Once again...to all in the Taman Sentul Jaya housing area that are actually reading this, please forgive me for I am calling this area Iraq. Seriously, this is like the war-torn country...there's bombing everywhere! Today marks the 8th day of the Chinese New Year...which is an auspicious date for the Hokkien community(if I'm not mistaken!) and they go burning the supposedly banned firecrackers til three in the morning. How great is that *rolled eyes*? It's basically sickening everytime the Lunar New Years kicks in...the celebrations are never-ending...terrible! Friends (foes included!), please take note that I now reside in Iraq...no more in Sentul Pasar! Yesterday it was Lilee's birthday. We had fun together...had some cheese cake from Secret Recipe and I gave her my present...a chain which had her other nickname spelt on it...*DELLA*! Me, Miera and Lysa shared some cash and bought her an angel figurine. She's the first in the crew to hit 18. I went to town today to get something for Shamini...bought a shawl and a pair of leather gloves. Then we had lunch in the Semua House food court. Had the usual char kuay teow and sago gula melaka. Then we went hunting for shoes...still couldn't find the right pair...so my dad said one of these days must go to Ampang Park and check out the shoes there. My mum was like 'You are terrible..such a pain!' Well I can't help it if my dad spoils me like mad, can I? *grins like a cunning fox* Then we went to SOGO to get the wrapping paper and a card from Memory Lane...got the perfect one then my dad suggested that we buy a little teddy bear for her...we got one that had a heart with the words 'Forget-me-not'...but that was one of the bears that didn't have a bag...but we bought it anyway...then came back home. And slept. At about ten-thirty we left home for Sham's place. Blackout. Again. Third time. Once on the eve of Chinese New Year. The second...on Chinese New Year day itself. Seriously I think that TNB is purposely doing this to us. On the eve of Chinese New Year, they called us and asked us whether the streetlight was working or not. We said yes. The next thing you know, blackout. The same thing happened on Chinese New Year day. At about 7.30 p.m., they called us and asked us the same question. I said it was working. I told my mum, "TNB just called and asked bout the streetlights. Don't be surprised if another blackout happens!". What I predicted happened. Blackout happened. Was talking to Sham and her mum til about 11.30p.m.. Then we went to Dayani's place to give the Mandarin oranges. We've got tonnes here. It's not like we're eating them, so might as well give it to our relations, right? Anyway I guess that's it from me...my eyes are closing and I'm yawning. Going to bed. The weird thing is...the midnight incident on Valentine's Day with that bfbf had me laughing. I've never shouted like that in my life...gotten into fights before, but not as bad as this one! I was laughing thinking bout it. The things that man said. Really left me rolling on the floor laughing. But don't look back in anger...I heard you say...

At least not today...

Take Care, Buenos Noches, and Paciba...ciao...

*gives a flying kiss*
Muax!

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Tempers flared...

Okay..I have finally drawn a conclusion...I'm very hot-tempered...and that the chances of me getting married is very dim. It's true! After what happened last night nearing midnight, I think that my temper can cause men to run away...*winks*! It all started at about 11.45 p.m....I was working on yesterday's blog and chatting with Miera and Jay...when I heard this loud commotion outside. Even with Natasha Bedingfield's CD blasted on so LOUD, I could still hear the fight outside. I opened the window and saw my parents and this guy always double park in front of my house, such a nuisance. He was insulting my dad with foul words. I was like 'No one takes the shit out of my dad and gets away from it!'. I got out of the room and went to Rizal's room and told him what happened. Then we went down and listened this guy fight my dad. I could hear him cuss and saying all sorts of things to my dad...I had half a mind to throw a slipper at his face...that I was constantly bugging my brother to let me throw it in that man's face. Then he called my dad a *bastard*...that was the last straw. I started yelling at the top of my lungs. He called my dad this and that and that got me on my nerves. The neighbours were trying to end the row...this big fat burly fool(bfbf) prompted my dad to take a stick(not the twig type!) and hit him...the neighbours were telling my dad to cool his jets. I even told my dad that it wasn't worth his time, money and energy to fight with that bfbf...and that man says we're a bunch of uneducated fools...whereas he's educated. Right...you wear fancy clothes and drive a Benz, a BMW and a seriously shabby Lancer plus you own a Harley and live in a flat, sure you're so educated...while we dim-witted donkeys live in a double-storey terrace house and own a practically old but useful car and my dad wears shorts at home...right on, we're dim-wits! He called my mum a hooligan. He also said that 'If we were educated, why were we screaming at him?' and that 'That's why the children also come down and start screaming at him!' I was practically yelling at him. I mean it's natural for us children to defend their parents when they are provoked. I did my job. He doesn't have kids so he wouldn't understand the rationale of me doing it. He accused my dad of scratching his 'priceless' BMW. Yeah right, like my dad has nothing better to do. He basically doesn't know who he's dealing with. My dad and me...we can form a crew. He was like going on and on on how gentleman-like he was, how educated he was and blah, blah, blah. I couldn't control my temper that even the Opera Singer came and consoled me...*surprised*! Really could have gotten angry with that bfbf! I think that was the first time in this year I couldn't control my temper. I had one last...none the year 2003. A lot in 2001 and 2002. In other words, I am a very hot-tempered brat. My brother didn't know what to do but refrain my dad from fighting with that bfbf. Me, being the very rebellious one at home, I couldn't just sit there and clap, pretending that this was a show and forget that something happened. I'm no hypocrite. For my family, especially my parents, I will fight on for them til the last drop of blood in my veins...I had to do something. Somehow yesterday I felt that God gave my mum the strength to yield my dad from continuing the fight. I've never seen my dad yield like that before. I thank God for giving us the strength to stand up against that man...especially me. I knew that this man was burly(about 10 times my size!) and that he was a little tipsy but I did what I could do...I fought on. I had to. It's in my blood that I am hot-tempered and rebellious. Inherited that from my dad. In the end all of us went in, and that bfbf drove off and said that he's taking the car because of blah, blah, blah...seriously I didn't get that last part because I yelled back to him and said 'Take the car and get lost!'...my brother was telling me to shut up. I absolutely never understand what that word means...I came up and started crying while chatting to Miera and Jay...they were saying that what I did was the right thing...all in the name of love. Miera joked on saying that I was lucky that there were no guys in my area about my age or slightly older because if they wanted to tackle me and if they saw yesterday's incident, they will probably think twice before they try to take me on...I laughed thinking of the prospects of me getting married...very dim. Men out there, in order to understand me, you have to cope with my temper. I think the first ten houses have never seen me yelling like that. Not even my own relations have too! My parents have seen me getting angry and raising my voice and losing my temper...but they've never seen me this way before. All in the name of love...I apologised to my parents for my temper...my dad was vey understanding, so was my mum but she did give me a stern warning: 'Don't do it again!'...I told her I'll try...but if anything like this happens again, I will be there to fight. My dad said he knew that I'd do it because we're family and we love each other to bits. I'm glad they're very understanding. I told my parents, that if anyone asks them why I'm very hot-tempered, say to them that I got it from my father. My dad said okay. Now if at all I don't get married, I will not blame that bfbf...instead I will say that people just don't get me...I'm a walking thermometer...even worse, Jay called me a walking bomb with a thermostat...true really. Anyway like a line in the song from Oasis's "Don't Look Back in Anger' goes...

So Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
I heard you say

At least not today...

Anyway, should anything happen after this post regarding the bfbf, I will keep you guys updated and more importantly, I will make him pay for insulting my parents and for ever crossing into Rowena Hanafiah's path. I will make him pay...mark my words! Take care, arigato and gracias...auf wiedersehen and buenos noches! *Grins* and *Gives a flying kiss*...muax!

Monday, February 14, 2005

Happy Valentine's Day to all...

14.02.2005...just one of those days you would probably see on your calendars. But to some who believe in a thing called love, it's actually Valentine's Day...a day to cherish and celebrate our loved ones...be it our friends,our family members, our relations, our teachers, our significant others or even our very own foes(well, technically they are the people you love...they're the people you LOVE to HATE!)! Woke up at 8.30a.m.(hard to see me up so early ok?)...about 9 a.m., Uncle Lim came to give us some CNY cookies and angpows(being unmarried and still a student, this is what I look forward to! It's not being money-minded or anything...it's what we Malays always say...'rezeki jangan ditolak'...which means that if something good that benefits you comes your way, don't push it away, accept it with arms wide open...). He was here until 2 p.m. and we were supposed to leave home for KLCC at 2 p.m.! Had a chat with my *Jaa*...had fun teasing each other...miss life back in school...we went to KLCC at 5 p.m. by taxi...massive traffic jam all the way! Reached there about 5.30 p.m. and we were scouting for a gift for Shamini...dad said give her mittens or the shawl or mufflers or the likes...whatever works! Saw this really beautiful dress... I tried it on and it looked okay...but mum and dad said the cutting was not for me...ahh, another sad tale of what could have been mine...went scouting for shoes...saw this really lovely blue shoes...but it didn't quite match my blue handbag and blue 'baju kurung/baju kebaya'...I have about five blue outfits to go...dad said maybe later this week can go buy the dress and shoes...score 2 for Jamie! Then we went looking around in Isetan...saw this swanky white barette...but dad said that wasn't nice...so then I saw a black barette with some dangling stars from the right to the left...and dad said that was cool...so I bought it. Yay...now I got a barette of my own...can't wait to show it off to Miera and Jay! Then went to Chamelon to fulfil my needs for earrings...I bought two pairs earrings...one was the letter 'R'...the other was a fishbone earring to go with the chain Mr. Kannan gave me from his trip to Pangkor Island...was looking for a butterfly pair of earrings...but couldn't find the right pair...that is, now, also on my to buy list...then bought two blue clips...I bought a bun from Rotiboy...chocolate bun...delicious...ate two bites and decided to keep it for breakfast tomorrow...then went to McDonald's for dinner...treated everyone for dessert...overall the day was to be remembered, not forgotten! Except for some parts that happened later on the night approaching midnight which I don't intend to talk on right now...don't want to spoil the happy moments...take care and adios...

Sunday, February 13, 2005

Plans...plans..plans...

Good morning to all those reading my blog...it's a lovely Sunday morning back in KL...Miera's back here in KL til this Friday I guess...we're celebrating Lilee's 18th birthday party...and Miera is basically arguing with me about what cake we're supposed to get for Lilee...Miera wants strawberry, I want chocolate...Lilee was fuming mad with us so she said she wanted cheesecake...nothing more and nothing less...serves us right for fighting! I mean it's Lilee's birthday, not ours! A lot of things happened yesterday...had my badminton session yesterday...my 2nd one! This week, Suren and Chandboy played with me and Rizal and my dad...Dayani was there for like an hour she just sat there moping...I asked her when was Pn. Cheong retiring and she said Friday the 18th...later on I asked her who is the replacement...then she said the PK HEM from MBS...so I just asked her whether it's a lady or what? Sarcastically she answered..'Then?' The nerve...just because I left school that doesn't make me any more stupid than I already am...then I answered her curtly...'It's not that...our school has got male teachers...so no surprise if a male teacher became headmaster in my school...you never know right?' Well, I'm usually sarcastic, but that wasn't quite the right time to be it...I know not whether I was sarcastic...but the thing is, no one dares to be sarcastic with me...I'll give it back to you straight in your face...I think those close to me will know how much I will fight back...I will not keep quiet in a fight...my mum knows me because everytime I fight with her, I will always have the last word...I can't never keep quiet when it comes to a fight...it's one of the worst qualities I have...then I read somewhere in The Star newspaper that the BRATS thing is going on...thought of joining...I only have one day to get my writing skills on...it will definitely be an eye-opener for me...a new experience for me...wanted to do it since I was 16...but always had something on...school, tuition and the likes...at about 7.30p.m., I got a call from Shamini saying that she was leaving for Ukraine on the 22nd of February...my God how fast time flies...and she said she'll be coming over one of these days...I need to get her something, well, it's the least I can do for a very good friend of mine...I've known her for 7 years already...I'm happy for her...I'm just thinking of an appropriate gift for her...nevermind...I'm going out tomorrow with mum and dad shopping(that's my job!)...for Valentine's...playing badminton was fun...the first session my whole body ached...this week, I'm having cramps in my left bum...funny come to think about it...now if you'll excuse me, I have to settle something with Madame Strawberries aka Miera...I'll teach her a thing or two on taste...which she absolutely doesn't have! More importantly, I need to get started on my BRATS application...need to send it in by tomorrow as the closing date is on the 18th of February...take care and merci beaucoup...muax...au revoir!

Thursday, February 10, 2005

To my future mother-in-law...

This is a small note to my future mother-in-law(well, if in case she reads this!)...


Dear future mother-in-law,

I am writing you this to let you know a few things about your future daughter-in-law, me. Firstly I would like to sat that I'm the girl your son fell madly in love with, and that there's nothing that can change that fact...I love your son so much till it bleeds. I want to thank you for blessing the love we share and letting us finally be together...I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I would like to add also that I am not an excellent cook, neither am I a good cook...but let me tell you this. Do not expect me to cook very well as I'm an awfully teribble cook. I would like to add that my mum also is not an excellent cook...but I ate the food she cooked for I do not want to starve myself to death...but do not worry though, your son will have the adequate amount of nutrients flowing through his veins, I also vow that your son will not starve to death.
Next I would like to add that if ever your son and I go out somewhere together and if he says anything about my 'terrible' sense of direction to you, I would like to say that I'm sorry. My mother was very bad in giving directions and so were her sisters. So all in all, this is an inherited disease brought down by mother. It only runs in girls of her family...since I am her daughter it has now, sadly passed down to me...please forgive me for that.
Another thing I would like to add is that if we find ourselves with only two children, please forgive me...one of my mother's friend has told me that if don't look after myself now...I might not be able to conceive any children. I might have a miscarriage if I don't look after myself now and I have children later. Not to worry, for your sake(and my mother's too!), I will take care of myself so that you will be blessed with beautiful grandchildren.
Then I would like to add that I do not expect you to think that the house will be tidy, spick and span, or even spotlessly clean. I will do my level best to clean the house. For when I was young I didn't do much of housework. It was my father who did it while my mother was working...then my mother continued. My father never encouraged me to clean the house for he feared I would fall ill. I have to admit my father spoilt me to the max, but for now I am learning, step by step...slowly but surely. I will not fail you...
I hope you understand why I'm telling you all this. I just want to clarify things with you so that you wouldn't expect much from me. I am just a normal human being who is prone to making mistakes in life in the name of experience. I hope that I have eased your mind and cleared all your doubts away...

Yours Sincerely...


Your future daughter-in-law...


P/S: If in case anyone is wondering whether everything written in here is purely fictional or true...the answer is that this is the truth...nothing else but the truth! I just thought of doing this since I had nothing better to do and mainly because the girls and I were talking about it yesterday...and Lysa gave me this idea of writing it in my blog! Take care and adios!

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Continuation to Natasha Bedingfield's 'Unwritten' tracklisting...

Hello...now where did I stop? Ah yes...song no. 09...well here's the rest of it...enjoy!

10. Drop Me In The Middle- This track features Bizarre of D12...it's of a hip-hop tune...it says that she wants to do something different so that she'll will leave an impact and she won't be following the stereotype...

11. Wild Horses- This track is an eye-opener(another one of them) for me...she sings of being free and of wanting to run with wild horses to do things that she used to do...she feels trapped that she is under obligations and commitments in life...she wants to recklessly love like she's always wanted to...for she longs to be free from all the commitments in life...she longs to do things that she hasn't done before and also things that she has already done before...that's me...I don't know once I get my SPM results, where this road I'm currently treading on will take me...I might never get a chance to do things I've always wanted to do...like learning how to ride a bicycle(shameful, I know!); hanging out with Miera, Lysa, Lilee, Jenn, Nysha n Jay...and talk on the phone like there's no tomorrow...will I ever get a moment to do all these things? Only time(and my results for that matter!) will tell me...

This next song is actually a hidden track after 'Wild Horses'...I've been trying to find the lyrics on the Net...but to no avail! The title might be 'Sojourn From The North'. It's almost similar to 'Unwritten'...it's all about taking control of your own life...and doing the things you want to do...There's this cute line from that track that goes like this...'Television, magazines; they tell you how to live your life, but not how to use your brains'...true really...this song also tells you that you should be yourself without having any fear of someone trying to change you...well, that's in my words actually!

Well, that's about it from Natasha's album tracklisting...I'll give you guys the lyrics later...She is an inspirational lady to me...wish I could meet her...take care...now it's my time to say 'arrivedeci'...Merci Beaucoup and good night!

Natasha Bedingfield's 'Unwritten' tracklisting...

Hello everyone...just as I have already promised, here's Natasha Bedingfield's 'Unwritten' album tracklisting...here it comes...

01. These Words- This song is one of my favourites...it tells you how she feels when it comes to expressing her feelings to her beloved...she said she tried mixing a few classics and hip hop beats...but it still doesn't come through...so she decided to express her love through this song...it reminds me a lot of Westlife's 'Obvious' and Gareth's 'What My Heart Want to Say'...in a way, it does remind me a little of how I am...:P

02. Single- This was one song that Miera asked to look out for...such an anthem! The title itself tells you what the song is about...it's about someone enjoying their singlehood while claiming that they want to fall in love but not at that moment...this song speaks for itself...the moment I heard it...I was like 'Ok...if ever anyone is single, they have to listen to this track!' It's really tells you that you should enjoy life and take things as they come...this ought to be the anthem for all the single girls out there...just like Christina Aguilera's 'Fighter'...

03. I'm a Bomb- This song is pretty much a party anthem...It says that I've been a good girl with a halo on my head...but now the weekend is here I've shed that angel image and now I'm a bad girl...it's a bit cocky and very tongue-in-cheek...I just loved the tune...so purely wicked...

04. Unwritten- Just absolutely inspirational...it tells you that your life is a blank page and that you're holding the pen...whatever that happens in your life is solely in your hands...you don't live for other people and neither do they...whatever you decide to do in your life, it's yours and yours alone...that there are things, be it good or bad, out there that awaits you in life...it's all in the name of experience...that is certainly an eye-opener for me...I can't be a puppet on a string for anyone anymore...it's time I took the reins of the horse-carriage...it's my life...

05. I Bruise Easily- Such a beautiful track...it describes how a girl feels when she is in love...she tells the guy that she hurts easily so he must be gentle when he handles her...she says that she is taking the risk of falling in love...she wants this relationship to be a beautiful one...I love this track partly because of the tune...and also it describes what I'm going through right now...

06. If You're Gonna...-This is one song that tells you what type of man she wants...she doesn't want a guy who plays by the rules, who is a lazy oaf...she wants a man who doens't now what danger means...a person whole loves taking risks...one line in the song goes like this 'Cos I'm looking for a guard dog, not buying chihuahua' From my analytical point from view(I hate it when I over-analyse)..it means that she wants someone who can make her feel secure when she is in his arms, and she doesn't want someone who makes her feel otherwise...

07. Silent Movie- This one is another favourite track of mine...it says that there are two people that don't know how much they are in love...they are more like people acting in a silent movie...and she tells him the to come into her life and paint her life back into colours(after all silent movies are all in black and white)...if he goes into her life, he will understand the thing called love better with his heart...

08. We're All Mad- First time I saw the title...I thought that this song was more of one the edgy side...it tells us that no one is as perfect as they think they are...eventhough people seem different, we're all the same...but in each of us there is a different perception imposed on us by others...so all in all no one is actually perfect...someway or another...we're all mad in our own way...sooner or later it will be discovered...mine has somehow or rather been revealed by Miera and Lilee...

09. Frogs & Princes- I think you guys can guess what the title is all about...she says that how many disastrous relationships that she has to go through until she finds Mr. Right...she gives us a little insight on how a date is supposed to be like...she doesn't want the man to be an impatient slob, but she wants a well-mannered bloke...she wants him to be romantic and passionate...(I'm talking as if I've been there and done that! Just hoping it will happen one day!)...

I've got another 3 songs to go...I'll give you guys that update later...see you...bye!

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

The madness has just started...

First of all, I would like to apologise for the lack of updates...been busy...and the thing about me being single, well, that's more of a lie...to keep it under wraps...hehe!
A lot of things have happened in the past few days that I haven't updated...like the fact someone betrayed me(that's what Miera said, not me!)...but...I'm glad I don't have to sit and cry bout things anymore...I have to be brave...that's life...you don't run away from problems..you have to face them( a line from 'The Sound of Music'). Other than that, I don't think I mentioned that my dad got his foot scalded with hot water...he's ok now...other than that...I went back to school one the 2nd of February...met Debra...it was just my luck that they were having a fire drill in school...the guard told me not to go into the school otherwise I will get burnt! Met Amal and Farie there...had lunch in KFC...I can't believe I got played out...the O.R Fillet Burger is so damn small...way smaller than Zinger...never mind it's all in the name of experience...we went to MidValley for the Education Fair...we took the KTM Komuter...somehow we got lost...no thanks to my mum! She always gets us to the wrong place...I don't know how she does it! I have gotten lost on a bus, in a car and now, on a train? Bizarre...all in the name of experience! Haha...saw this really sweet blouse...green one in Miss Selfridge...but the price was like...RM198...that blouse could've been mine...

I can't believe Miera sent Kalyani a message when I specifically told her not to...she is stubborn...like me...I can't blame her though! She's always looking out for me...she's like the sister I never had...she's very protective of me...she always wants what's best for me...that's what frieds are for, right? I swear if anyone lays a finger on Miera, they'll have to deal with me...be it my own friends that I have here...no one messes with my Miera...other than that I finally got Natasha Bedingfield's album...the songs in that album are wicked! Cool! I find her songs inspirational as they have a deep meaning to it...she's my role model...she was into psychology and arts...wow...cool, don't you think? Her voice is dynamic...I'll give you guys the full monty(details really) later...I am reading 'Dracula'...:P...still have another 193 more pages to go...out 520 pages...at least it doesn't keep me bored...now if you guys will excuse me...I have to prepare myself for the Chinese New Year madness that started yesterday(just a little)...but definitely the madness will start tonight in full swing...don't understand what the madness is about? The madness is actually the firecrackers...it usually starts from about 8.30pm on the eve of Chinese New Year and will continue til morning of Chinese New Year...OH JOY! Wish I could get out of this madness...I hate it! Miera said she's here with the whole Chaudhary clan, extended ones included...for the annual Chinese New Year eve dinner family reunion...well her mum is Chinese..the whole Lee clan will be here(once again extended included)...Lilee is moaning about the fact that she has to go to China to see the maintainance of the mansion her late grandmother left her in the will...lucky girl...her cousin Patricia is getting one house...they have seven excluding the mansion...she got a house and the mansion...she is always telling me that she never expected this from her grandmother considering the fact her grandmother used to be testing her patience...she is taking it as a blessing in disguise...so it's a big happy family...really...I mean in Miera's family got 8 kids...Lilee's family also got 8 kids...then Jay's family 4 kids...Savynn ayya's family also got 4 kids...then Lilee's cousins got about 10 of them...see what I mean by big? Haha...anyway got to go now...supposed to call Miera now...ciao! I'll let you guys now what I think of the 'UNWRITTEN' album...track by track listing...

~DeSilva out~