Parents's 25th Anniversary...

Well, today is the 31st of December 2004...the last day of the year 2004...mum and dad's wedding anniversary...25th one...wow...wonder we could stay that way? Gave them the presents and the card...they like the presents...well, I bought them...of course, I have taste! Haha...the swan is on the shelf in front of their 21st anniversary gift I gave...the photo frame...the other frame(my cover up gift!) is on the shelf too but at the side...haha...well nothing much today though...usually if it's the New Year's Eve, we'd celebrate it by watching the fireworks display...but since the tsunami disaster took place, all New Year celebrations have been cancelled...cleaning out the side room...found 4 big plastic bags filled with old clothes...asked my mum to get me the red spaghetti strap top...really hot one..it was hers...dad said he's not letting me take any old clothes from there since they were outside...but mum managed to salvage that top(thanks ma...I owe you one!)...found two koala bears...from some part of the house...dad found it actually...so I asked him whether I could have them...and guess what? He said I could! Unexpected really...one koala is big while the other one is small and it looks more like a 'kelawar' than a koala...haha...told Miera(God, how I miss my vice president!) about it...she asked it whether am I going to give the koalas name...I told her I might name them Ann and Micky...she laughed hilariously...she said...'Dah sah angau!' Hehe...read *his* letters just now...really cried...so sweet...what made it worse was that I was listening to Gareth's first album...listened to 'What My Heart Wants To Say'(track 06) and With You All The Time(track 10)...tears started to well in my eyes...I'm getting damn 'jiwang' lately...it's all your fault! Went to Cozy Corner in Ampang Park for dinner...wore my blue sleeveless tee from Esprit...the blue jeans from Diesel...the new blue sports shoes from Central...today I was all blue...down right to the bag...haha...the Blues babe...we were the last family to leave the restaurant...my God...I was dead embarassed...so funny...today we pased by the Wisma MCA...sweet memories came back to me...Add Maths seminar...*He* wanted to treat me for lunch...so funny...I still remembered the sad face he had when I said no...and the cutest moment was when I was on the bus...out of the thousand faces there...I could see him staring straight in my bus...he was just standing there looking at my bus at my window...though he was a bit further...it was so cute! He's a real sweetheart...hehe...everytime I pass by Wisma MCA...I always remember those sweet moments with *him*...hehe...right now I feel like a bloated turkey...just got a message on Friendster from *him*...he said he was sorry for being a horrible person...and here I am thinking that I was the horrible one...I cried...I get sentimental because of him...now it's love, Miera(you can now call me sayang!)...'The Reason' by Hoobastank is the NO.1 song on HITZ.FM! Lovely song...damn meaningful...gets to me...so many people I know have helped me along the way...to start over a new...the reason...is you...actually so many of them-lah! What if I can talk to *him* right now? Even for just one minute...I'd do anything...oh well...HAPPY NEW YEAR 2005...forget all that has happened in 2004...let's forgive and forget ok? My new Year's resolution should be up shortly...hehe...like I ever stick to them...cheers!

Donations for the tsunami victims in Sri Lanka...

Nothing much happened today...oh yeah...Rizal's mad at me...I thought women had PMS...I think *he* 's still mad at me...I think it's because I asked him the question...maybe he thinks I'm testing him...but truth is I wasn't...I just wanted to know what my loved ones would do if I died that Sunday...just being concerned, that's all...I'm so sorry if I offended you...didn't mean to do it...anyway I might be going to the Sri Lankan Buddhist temple in Sentul(where else can it be? I'm such a dumbnut!) to give away the stuff for the tsunami victims...by doing this, I feel really happy I'm doing something for them...really happy...mum and dad are down putting the things in the boxes...Mum actually found a dress that she hasn't worn before...and she gave it to me...but it is kinda semi-transparent...but it's beautiful(wonder if *he* sees me wearing it, will he be surprised?)...haha...Miera should be back in Taiping soon...she's supposed to give me a buzz once she gets there...still waiting...I'm still scared bout the white garden thing I dreamt about...it really spooked me to my wits end...have to tell her bout it...she's one of the buddies I don't want to lose...was supposed to go India today...then on the 31st touchdown in KL...just her luck her dad cancelled the tickets to India...now they're here...tomorrow's my parents wedding anniversary...25th one..bought two presents for them...since daddy saw the first one by accident, so I had to cover up by buying another one...I bought everything on my own using my own money...hahaha...anyway..still don't know how we're going to usher in the new year...hopefully we can go shopping tomorrow...shop for what, you're asking? For earrings-lah..what else? My number one obsession...maybe buy Natasha Bedingfield's album...or buy more clothes ^_^...hey I'm a girl, what do you expect me to do...cook(though it's required for my CV for my future mother-in-law!)? Okay I got to buzz...later!

*Micky*'s home...

Hey...Jamie's in the house...she's crazy and deranged...haha! =)
I'm alright now...I'm a humanitarian now...looking for some clothes to be donated to the tsunami victims in Sri Lanka...might be going to the Sentul Buddhist Temple to give our donated stuff either today or tomorrow...well it's the least I can do for my ancestral ground...hope the victims will be happy with our donations...it's the thought that counts...can't believe Miera brought her laptop to Spain...she should be resting...I hate to burden her mind with my problems...but she's the one that truly understands me...she's thoughtful...she actually sent me a testimonial while she was on holiday...so sweet and nice of her to do so...oh yeah, *he*'s home...that's sweet...since my nick on MSN was 'IF I DIED THAT SUNDAY, WILL YOU EVER KNOW? WILL YOU CRY FOR ME?' ...he sort of replied that and said 'If you died on Sunday, I will on Monday'...so I guess that answers my question...*_*...we chatted shortly...I think I made him angry...I don't know really...he said he'd be online later in the evening...I hope he's not mad at me...I'm such a donkey at times...I'll never forgive myself for being one! Okay...I got to go now...catch up with you guys tomorrow...bye! ~_~ @_@ *_* ^_^ *_* Muax!

Ain't no sunshine(when he's gone...)

Actually I'm sad...thinking what I told Debra and Miera yesterday...Miera gave me a short buzz...she's in Spain...having her post-Christmas celebrations...with her family inclusive of the extended ones as well...she told me she brought Charlie along...I'm actually feeling blue(not because I just bought new blue shoes!)...I really miss those days...now she's always trying to 'kenakan' me with her bloody 'ciku' jokes...my little sister, Debra was sweet...she told me not to worry bout the 'What-if-I-died-in-Sri-Lanka-during-the-tsunami?' thing...the main thing was that I'm now safe and sound in Malaysia...not in Sri Lanka...tried to get that thing out of my mind...by doing something a woman loves doing...SHOPPING!(Yeah, Debra...I took your advice...thanks!). Bought a not-so high heel shoes(black ones...don't like it...cramps my style)and another one...a pair of sports shoes...blue ones...very nice...went to Semua House to get some lunch(koay teow and the must-have sago gula melaka)...then on to Sogo...bought a lamp for Kakak Padmini's family...since they gave us the handphone...I have no idea what they're going to do with the handphone...only God knows...then stopped at Maju Junction...bought two sleeveless tees at Esprit...both 70% off...so I had to pay like RM29.40 only...yes I paid for it ok? Now I'm back home...with Comel, Julian, Melissa, Andy, and Farrah (my lil teddies). They're like this security blanket for me...when I need to calm down...like yesterday...nearly suffered a breakdown...I'm scared that if I did go on holiday in Sri Lanka...I might have been one of those 12049 people that died due to the tsunami...I could've been the 12050th one...I am thankful to God for always guiding and protecting my loved ones(Including *him*!) and me as well...blessing in disguise, that's what Miera and Jay(the one with the *best ciku in the planet!* Midjeex said that okay, not me...) told me...got to go...bye! Where's the answer to my question?...Muax!

Tsunami...

I'm back...but I was thinking bout this when I was sleeping last nite...over 4500 people of Sri Lanka died due to the tsunami...If I had decided to go there for a holiday with my family, would I have survived the tsunami? Would I be among the 4500 lives that was washed away by the tidal waves?...it really got me thinking...thank God we didn't go there just yet...supposed to go there or Thailand for the X'mas holiday...still I thank Allah S.W.T. for giving me another chance to walk on this Earth and one shot in life to set things right...but there was this big question that filled the corner of my mind...if I did go to Sri Lanka and I died there...will *he* know? Will he cry or will he rejoice? Will any of my friends know that I died there...will any of them weep for me? Miera told me that she told God that whatever happens, let Him take her first instead of me...for she can't bear to see me cry...what would I do if I didn't have her around? I was touched...at least I knew that there will be someone that will cry at my funeral...=)...hahaha...I'm waiting to talk to *him*...I need to know how you are...and what you'll do if I did die in that natural disaster...I need an answer from you soon...I hope that all my friends and relatives that have gone on a holiday to any of the countries that have been gravely affected by the tsunami...that they are safe...and that God is protecting them...you have my love and prayers as well...*he* too!

Farewell SMKCS...

Hello...actually I'm kind of new at this 'blogger' thing...It's been like 3 weeks already since I last went to school and caught up with my friends...really miss school...since I'm out of school...I feel as though my mind's so empty...all this while I always had my studies(yeah I know what you're thinking...I'm lying...but no sweat, it's so true though I'm not one of those girls who have their books with them even when they sleep!)on my mind...constantly...I miss the times I had with my mates in 5 Anggerik...the noisiest class in SMKCS...havoc...with Sham, Kalai, Priya(of all people!), Veena, Jerry, Jho n Sally...God I miss those guys...they were very supportive of me when I was down and out of trouble(with daddy)...I miss the teasings...jokes...the 'tilik nasib' thing about who I'll marry and when...how many kids...hehe...=) damn funny! They said I'm getting married at 26...my husband's age also 26...and we'll have two kids(both boys...unfortunately)...my husband's initial is 'R'...they were hoping it would be 'M'...psychos! Still remember that they told me:
*Kalau you kahwin, buat satu table panjang especially for 5A girls and our husbands...not the round table, you know?*
Then I remembered I asked them what about their kids...they said they'll bring them but I told them leave them in a special room...Then they said:
*Nanti masa balik nak ambil anak, karang tak tahu mana satu anak kitorang...takpe take only the fair kids...yang dark ones tu leave them there!*
Can't imagine we sat at 5C and talked bout that...real nutcases! I miss the days...If I stay at home, I got one useless monkey to remind me that I must learn how to cook...after my husband's mother will say that I'm a useless daughter-in-law...how cute...Lilee+Lysa(of all my friends...never thought this girl will do this to me!)are talking bout my wedding plans...from the gowns, hantaran, venue, guestlist, songs to the honeymoon...was watching 3R just now...these two cikus said that I should have my honeymoon in Pangkor Island instead of having it in Sri Lanka(God bless the people that died during the quake and tsunami)...stupids...I need to fill my mind...I want to go back to school and study(you guys reading this might think I've gone nuts...but...this is how I feel)just written two poems last week...making it 9 poems that I've written so far...my creative sparks had to take a seven month break due to the SPM...now it's back live and kicking...anyway I have to go now...have to see The Apprentice...hope that Amy gets kicked out...manipulative biatch...hehe...sorry for the language...anyway gotta run..bye...

I REALLY AM MISSING *HIM*...Real sweetie...muax...love is all around...